Hypno musings...

Thought I'd show a face...

2011-03-19T13:31:00.000-07:00

...In a way.

I understand there hasn't been a post on this blog in a long time. I think, in the mental condition I was in at the time, it became the wrong thing for me to do, and it's still probably something I should keep to some sort of limit. I understand you guys want to read about hypnosis, much the same as I would if I read a blog titled "Hypno Musings", but I can't promise lots and lots of posts or lots and lots of details. To be honest, I was considering just closing this blog, but thought against it since the history kept in this blog is kind of an insight into my life and the different events and changes that have happened (plus there are some posts that I still enjoy reading in *many* different ways).

First of all, I'll give a little update into the life of me in the past 12 months. I found a girl, and seem to have lost her again through a web of intricate difficulties that have baffled me more than one could imagine. My car was wrote off, but replaced with a shiny new (ish) one, ready for any hypnotic antics my future self may indulge in. My dad went into rehab and is doing brilliantly, looking better and better each day. I'm still in the same old job, but I'm off touring with some friends of mine at the back end of the year. I'd tell you who they are, but it would then become obvious who I was :P And I'm still not sure I want to show my face yet. Though, if anyone goes onto fetlife and searches me, then you'll see me in all my (albeit younger) glory. I have more of a beard now. Though, I've fashioned it to look a bit tidier. I've been a bit quiet on the hypnosis front. I hypnotised the girl mentioned earlier in this paragraph, but it was a little difficult. She's less suggestible than I thought she would be, though I could do this interesting thing Derren Brown did in one of his shows where you put her into trance whilst she's asleep. That proved extremely effective, and was quite thrilling for me to see her performing actions in her sleep, and surprisingly not remembering any of it the following morning. But still, shan't dwell on that. I don't know what's happening with her currently.

I've done a little bit of hypnosis in the past year. I hypnotised the first person I ever hypnotised again a couple of months back. I also found out, in that brief session, that she enjoys being a robot and taking orders! I left a good'un there I think! I've spent a little time looking into different inductions, though I'm still mostly using the progressive relaxation method. It still surprises me, even now, how many women I talk to seem interested in hypnosis. It just adds to me feeling a little better about myself, knowing that I'm maybe not as weird as I thought (though weird is pretty cool). One thing I'd *LOVE* to have another go at is freeze triggering and manipulating the frozen body parts into poses. I've not done that for a while and it's quite amusing to see the faces of those frozen when they're unfrozen and discovered a digit shoved up their nostril. Cindii reckons I have a mischievous grin that gives away that I've done something sneaky. I have to agree, I do. I just can't help it. I guess I'm just looking for a reaction, since that adds to the enjoyment for me. The bemused look that I get as the frozen participant finds themselves on their back, one arm and one leg in the air, the hand of said arm posing a one finger salute. I miss that rather a lot.

So, just thought I'd let you guys know I'm still alive. Cindii is still alive and enjoying herself. Tash is still alive and also enjoying herself. I hope you guys are all alive and enjoying yourself too. I can't promise I'll post loads on here, but I'll do my best to pop back from time to time and talk hypnosis and stuff. In the meantime, take care, and I'll show my mischievous face again soon!

Buh-bye for now!

Time for a Break...

2010-06-03T07:08:00.000-07:00

I think it's best to say that I'm taking a break from all of this hypnosis stuff. It's not like I'm active in "the lifestyle" at the moment anyway. Whether this is permanent or not is something I don't know yet; the fact that Melted and I haven't spoken in about 3 weeks (because of an argument over the now-deleted blog post some of you read) makes me think that it should be permanent.

I'm a strange kind of submissive, I like being submissive but I also like having a mind of my own. I don't want to be "owned" forever or have every aspect of my life dominated by someone. For me it's strictly sexual. I like being single and flirting with guys or having short term flings with them and I don't want that being taken away from me by someone who has no control over what I do.

I love hypnosis, but over the past year or so I've noticed that it's awkward if I want to do some hypnosis when I have a boyfriend or potential boyfriend in my life. Most guys I've been with find hypnosis fascinating and don't see the situation me and Daz have negatively.

I think it's best for me to step back and let Daz do his own thing with whoever he wants. I don't feel like a priority anymore if I'm quite honest. I'm still going to be a poster on here but for now it's goodbye. Thanks to Daz for introducing me to this, to Lex and Parkey for their amazing advice over the past month or so and also thanks to everyone who reads this.

xXx

Let me know what happens...

2010-05-07T08:37:00.000-07:00

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Well...

2010-05-03T06:01:00.000-07:00

Since Cindii has done the kind thing and posted her side of the "Enigma" experience (i like the sound of that; Enigma Experience) then I guess I should post mine. Though I apologise, I have this weird thing where I'll go to a gig and I won't remember much of the set 'cos I was enjoying myself too much. But yeah, like Cindii said, if you're going to watch the show, then don't blame me if I spoil it. I'm not telling all, since I'm sticking with the majority of the promise we made with Derren after the show, but I can't write a blog saying "a thing happened, then another thing, then we did a thing, then we went home" so don't read if you don't want to know. Fankoo.

We were sat pretty close to the front (4th row back, right in the middle), and I humoured myself with the thought that I could spit on the stage from where I was sat. I wouldn't, since Derren would probably have brought out a mop and bucket and told me to clean it up. But anyway, me and Cindii had a bit of a chat and a laugh, and then, eventually, the show got started. I recognised bits of it from the DVD's, so some parts were predictable, but still enjoyable. The first half was scattered with jokes, unbelievable tekkers (for anyone who watches soccer am, you may understand) and ended way too quickly. I've skipped through the first part fast since I know you're probably thinking "c'mon! Get on with the trancing talk already!". Well, here we go.

Yeah, as Cindii said, Derren had informed us that there would be a trancing in the second half of the show. I didn't want to take part, so I put my fingers in my ears as instructed, and watched to see who would respond. Needless to say, when the noise started, I watched Cindii because I KNEW she would be one of those stood up, and sure enough, she was the first one standing. A few heads around me turned, but only those of the people that weren't taking part which were few. A few chuckles later, a woman (Jenny was it Cindii?) came and moved some people from the seats to her right and guided Cindii to the stage. A few more heads were turning at this point, including one "gentleman" gazing at a certain part of her anatomy. I had to fight the urge to throw something at him by reminding myself that I was in a way perving too. But yes, Cindii was guided to the stage, and Derren returned with a guy, then stood them side by side on stage, and lifted their arms in turn to demonstrate how deeply relaxed they were. It was funny watching someone other than me do that, but since it was Derren, it was acceptable. Anyway, Cindii was lead to a seat, had a smock put on her and a blindfold, and was then carefully lowered onto a chair where she sat completely still, slightly slumped, whilst Derren tried to make this guy solid like a plank of wood. I had suspicions about how responsive this man was, which were strengthened when he kept buckling whilst propped up between two posts, and when he was stood back up he went to remove his blindfold. But still, it was impressive. And then came Cindii.

Cindii was carefully guided from her chair to the other side of the stage, where Derren was stood with a table next to him that had a bottle of vinegar, a glass, tissue and as we found out at the end, some mints. He first got a member of the audience to check the authenticity of the vinegar, though I could've provided that feedback since I could smell it from where I was sat. But yes, once verified that it was potent acid, he then proceeded to pour some into the glass, which he placed in Cindii's hand and told her that she must be thirsty after the long time sat watching the show, and that she should drink, which she did. It was this point you could tell Derren saw what a good subject she was, since she near enough downed the drink, and the one time she stopped drinking, she was starting again before Derren could tell her to try some more. Quite quickly, the vinegar was gone, and he took the glass, then gave her a piece of paper and a pen to do some automatic writing. He was surprised that she started writing a number, and also surprised that it was upside down, again calling for him to praise her ability as a subject, which I knew anyway :P But a few moments later, the paper was in the envelope, Cindii had picked an audience member, and he was stood on stage counting the change in his wallet whilst Cindii returned from her deep trance state. She had a mildly shocked look on her face, coupled with the delight she'd obviously experienced meeting Derren himself, and getting a kiss from him too, and when the number on the paper matched the change in the guys pocket, everyone applauded with gasps, Cindii beamed, Derren beamed, the guy looked perplexed but amazed, and they left the stage, Derren handing Cindii 2 mints before she left and thanking her. I'll also point out that, in conversation after the show, Cindii had thought she'd picked out a woman, which we didn't want to point out to the man involved, just incase he took offence. "I THOUGHT YOU WERE FEMALE!". I know I'd take offence.

But yes, I'm not posting my picture of me with Derren, purely because it's got me in it, and I don't think the world, and more importantly me, is ready for it. But he's a gentleman, and told me my name was 1 letter off being perfect (since my name is Darren). But I'm still beaming now as I write this, just thinking about the fact I'd met one of my idols. On what it was like to see Cindii tranced by someone else, I found it interesting. I wouldn't have enjoyed it if it was one of the 'tists from the MC Forum making her undress and reveal herself to them, I've gotten kinda protective about that, but to see her in a trance like that was good. I'm more than happy to trance her for a partner or something, so long as I know them first and can trust them. I'm not letting some irresponsible goit loose with her brain if he's going to just abuse it. I've reminded her on many occasions that, even in slave mode, she can say no, even if she's programmed to say yes. Just so that she's safe. I'm digressing anyway.

We had a quick trancing session on the way back. I don't think I'll be trying it again. They should be kept seperate, so sorry Cindii, but for our safety, that won't be happening again. I did, however, put in a maid trigger so that she could sort my drink for me so that I could keep my eyes on the road. I didn't need to, but what's better than a blank, mindless maid handing you a drink in complete silence? I don't think anything is.

Anyway, just briefly in this rather long post, my ability to do hypnosis has leaked slightly in my day to day life, encouraged by me of course, so I'm slightly growing in confidence about it. At some point I may show my face, and I think you'll be surprised I'm not an overweight, hairy guy who can't get a girl to save my life so I just trance them (as that's supposedly what a hypnotist is to people on the streets, even if we all know different). I'm a sprightly(ish), slim, dark haired (yet still hairy) guy who actually doesn't look too bad. If you ignore the annoying bit beneath my chin anyway. I look more "rock" than I used to apparantly. But yeah, I'm sure Cindii or Tash will fill you in on my appearance :P It'd be interesting to hear it from their point of view *hint hint* :P But yeah, until I feel I can show my face, you'll have to make do with a description.

Chow!

Derren Brown - Enigma - Cindii's Point of View

2010-04-30T14:43:00.000-07:00

The lovely Melted and I went to go see Derren Brown: Enigma in Birmingham last night. This show is all I have been able to talk about all day!

This post is going to focus on one part of it, where I was lucky enough to be on stage with Derren himself! (it's okay to be jealous!) I must say that if you are going to see any of the Enigma shows then please do not read any more of this post as I do not want to spoil the fun or mystery for anyone, you continue reading at your own risk!

At the end of the first half he said that he would be entrancing the whole audience in the second half. Some people were not allowed to do this for health and safety reasons (i.e. back pains, pregnancy, etc). He would play a noise and said that the entrancing would make you feel weightless enough to stand up, or like you're being forced to stand up. Either way, a successful trancing resulted in standing up. He then chose people from the audience to get on stage, one of whom was me! I remember this woman called Jenny leading me out of the row (4th row!), onto the stage and sat me down in a chair after placing a blindfold and a smock on me. He had another subject on stage and did some stuff that I'm sure Melted could tell you about. Then it was my turn to be played with ;). He was talking to the audience about something, then passed me a glass full of liquid and asked me to drink it all. I drank it and it tasted like flat coke, so it was quite pleasant to drink. He took the glass from me and replaced it with a card and a pencil and asked me to write on the card (if you watched The Events, it was the technique he used with the people to guess the lottery numbers), I remember him saying that it was written upside down and it was more like a number than a letter or word. Then he led me into the audience and asked me to find someone I felt a connection to and point to them. I found someone and they followed me to the stage. Derren asked him to pull out his wallet whilst he let me awake from my trance (opening your eyes and seeing hundreds of people looking at you = bizarre!) and they started counting how much money he had on him. He had £34.97 in his wallet. Derren then asked the man to open the envelope containing what I had written...can you guess what I wrote? 3497! (albeit upside down!)

Derren asked me how I was feeling, which I could only answer with a confused noise! He asked me for my name and said that I was a great subject, what a compliment! Before I left the stage he gave me 2 mints, so I got sweeties too!

The rest of the show was amazing. I sat there in awe, partly because I was onstage with him, and because his work is fantastic!

We met him afterwards and he said that I did great and wrote it on my ticket!

So many people came up to me saying "did you know what you did?" and Melted would not let them tell me so he could tell me in the car! A woman even asked me if I had been hypnotised before, and Melted said "yes, she has." whilst I was trying to hide the fact from her!

The ride home was fun, when we figured out how to get home! Melted brought up something I had told him months ago, which was I have always wanted to be hypnotised whilst someone is driving. We tend to have a slightly nervous conversation before we get into it, and with that out the way he began. I won't go into massive detail but I've never been so aroused in a car before!

All in all it was a night I'll never forget. Thank you so much Melted for taking me, I love you loads for it. And thank you Derren for making this show one of the greatest moments I have ever experienced - I love you as well!
I'm sure Melted will go into more detail about it than I have, there's a few things he told me that I was surprised about!

Definitely go and see the show! I cannot explain how fantastic it is!

xXx

p.s Follow me on Twitter - KittyCindii

And here's some pictures! :D
Me and Derren outside the stage door - Yum!

"Dear Lucinda, lots of love, you were great! Love, Derren Brown x"

xXx

Because even slaves can work their way around their master...

2010-04-13T16:16:00.000-07:00

You may have noticed a nice little thingymajig at the side which is otherwise known as a poll. I have erected this poll under the instructions of a certain person whom shall not be named, but shall be described for now as "Cindii". Please vote, as it will make her swell with some sort of smugness to know she'd weedled her way round me (like the pokemon, yno?). On my 2 cents, if things were normal then I'd vote "yes", but they're not very normal right now, because even flirting with a girl seems wrong, mainly due to the unusual way me and the ex broke up. Which is a point, I saw her yesterday, obviously trying to make me jealous (and failing might I add, since she's too much trouble to try dealing with), but she's downgraded, and the girl I was with is pretty hot, so she lost. But yes, Tashbot is a lovely girl, and I had a great time with her at the flyleaf gig a few weeks back, though I was concerned she was going to pass out since we hadn't had a drink since we left Sainsbury's at 4.30, and the gig finished at about 10.30, but I bought her and our other friend one, the least I could do.

Anyway, on the hypnosis front, I'm amazed Cindii hasn't blogged it yet. I tranced her a week or so ago on msn, though I suspect she was exhausted as her head was wobbling round a lot. She had an itchy scalp, which I put to some use by suggesting that scratching it sent a wave of pleasure round her body (and not blackpool pleasure either). It was funny seeing her scratch her head, with no idea what was happening, and then say "what have you done to me?" with a grin. I then moved the feeling to her nose, and chuckled again at the sight of her trying to subtley touch her nose without making it look too obvious. Unfortunately, it was obvious, so she failed. I also made her feel tied up, and the more she struggled, the tighter the ropes became and the more aroused she became. That was fun :P I've also done that with Tashbot, who's orgasm face is something I actually love seeing because it's adorable! Ahem... Yes... Where was I? Oh, I think that's actually pretty much all we did, since Cindii was tired, and I was trying to break myself into it again. It does remind me though...

I went for a walk last week around town, albeit with my mum so that I could buy my dad's birthday present. She went off for physio, since she had an accident earlier in the year and has been going for well over a month now, and I went off to see what I could find. A Bon Jovi guitar tab book and "The Hurt Locker" DVD later, I found myself with 50 minutes left to waste (since the whole shopping trip took me 10 minutes). I had my pokewalker on me (google if you're unfamiliar) so I decided to take a stroll and earn some points. I found myself doing laps of the town centre, before I remembered the little grass area next to the river, and the walkway there. I duly changed bearings and headed for the bridge to cross the river, and found myself walking along the opposite side of the field where me, Cindii and Tash had done some public hypnosis (public being as far away from people as possible, ensuring Cindii and Tash looked fairly normal in the process). It brought back a few memories, as did the car park since that's where I've done a few other bouts of hypnosis. It's wrong to think of it as a "hypno-park", but I remember the first girl I hypnotised, we'd took one of her friend's along with us who wanted to try, and I was nervous about showing her hypnosis, but whilst in a play area, I suddenly used my ex's sleep trigger, and made her arm rigid. Her friend was amazed, and found it great, so all was good. But yeah, it's reminded me how certain things anchor memories in your head, how one song can instantly bring up a memory, and how one place can make you laugh. Good times.

Another Hypnosis in Pop Culture Blog!

2010-03-07T09:32:00.000-08:00

Reading the recent posts on other blogs about hypnosis in popular culture and the social taboo around mind control fetishes has made me think quite a lot. Ever since I got into hypnosis and my hypnokink was blooming I began to realise how often it is used in television, film and gaming.

I will use the quote Lex used in his post "Drugs are for losers, and hypnosis is for losers with big weird eyebrows!" (a classic quote from one of my favourites, Futurama, for those not as nerdy as myself!) In Futurama it is spoken of in a more comic context because it is a funny show, but its references to hypnosis are very satirical (Everybody loves Hypnotoad! which is a hit TV show in NNY, I wonder why?).

I honestly didn't notice the hypnosis theme in Bioshock until the character Andrew Ryan revealed all, I didn't even realise Atlas kept saying "would you kindly?" (the trigger phrase) before each request. Bioshock has completely fascinated me because you never saw the protagonist get hypnotised and the trigger made the subject feel as if he was acting under free will; I think I shall have to get Melted to apply a "would you kindly" trigger, although a "code yellow" one would not go down well!

One thing that made me write this blog was when I was with Tash earlier. We were listening to music; Britney Spears in particular (a guilty pleasure of ours, not a secret as well kept as our hypnokink!), and I noticed that she mentions hypnosis quite a lot in her songs, under the definition that the person she sings about entrances her because of lust, love, etc. I think this is all a clever disguise for her own hypnokink! Which leads me to the question, do you think many famous people like actors and singers share this fetish with us "norms"?

Hopefully we can resume our blogging about hypnosis between Tash, Melted and myself. I think some has been arranged for sometime this month so stay posted!

xXx

Update...

2010-02-24T05:06:00.000-08:00

I'm still here. I keep occasionally flitting back to this page to see if anything has changed. Nothing has changed in 2 months. Quite amusing in a weird way really.

Still got a few issues. My car is fixed though, which is good, and I am now single, and probably better off for it, since what I faced was pretty much just abuse. There's going to be a lot of changes in my family this year I think. My mum has got to have a hysterectomy to help a long-term condition, though she's still going to be ill afterwards, but there'll be 3 months where I'm required to run around doing stuff for her, so that'll be fun. My grandad also has prostate cancer, though it's in the early stages, so we're confident that'll go, but cancer is a bitch, so lets just hope for now. My nanna was also rather ill a few weeks back, she became unable to talk, just blabbered, shaking, and a few other problems. But yeah, she's better now, so fingers crossed it doesn't happen again.

I'll stop the complaining, just wanted to kind of put into perspective what was going on, so it wasn't just me being mardy. It's not the worst thing in the world, there are billions who will be having a tougher time than me, but it's all been bunched into one big chunk, which is taking some getting used to. But it'll all come good.

As for hypnosis, there's still not been anything with Cindii or Tashbot, which kinda sucks, but I guess that's 'cos we're out of routine and stuff. I've introduced a few others to hypnosis, met up with one last night, who asked me, right in front of my best mate, to hypnotise her. I'm still having issues with confidence and shyness, so I kinda changed subject straight away. Worried she may get the wrong message from it. Someone else had a lot on her mind, so I just did an induction with her, then allowed her to wake up from it, to help clear her mind, and it worked, and she loved it. And one other girl, cute as buttons, when I said I'd taught myself how to do hypnosis, had shouted "HYPNOTIZE ME!". I had a chuckle, and hoping I can get the chance to have a go at hypnotising her. It's funny really, I occasionally say I suck with girls, but it's quite funny how many seem to be interested in the fact I can do hypnosis. I'm a bit of an ugly bugger, but as soon as I mention it, it's like a mysterious magical power or something. Cindii and Tashbot will be my favoured 2 volunteers, but when someone shows interest, why not?

Anyway, I'm going to be sad and plan how I'm going to approach sorting out my room. The aim is to get it to look good enough to be able to bring friends and others back without feeling nervous about them entering my room. May help me a little. So I'll post again soon, I promise. Leave some comments too, 'cos I'm always happy to answer questions.

Sorry...

2009-12-08T17:39:00.000-08:00

I seem to forever be saying sorry, but I am. I've been away for rather a long time, and may be for a little bit longer. I've had a sort of hiatus. Stuff in life was becoming wearing, tiring and difficult to deal with, so I had to put aside most of the things I enjoy and get everything sorted before I considered returning back to "normal" life. I'm still shuffling things about at the moment, one problem I'm faced with currently is my car is in the garage because someone drove into the back of it and smashed it up. I've got a different car, but it's a nightmare to drive, and it's stressing me out, however easily everything was sorted out. I've also got a busy weekend of long awaited fun at a party and a department meal. I've been waiting for these for many months now, and just feel that a bit of a break, a laugh, some festive cheer and a drink created from the fermentation of various types of grain and hops may help lift my spirits a little and possibly help bring me back to normality.

I've not done any hypnosis with Cindii for a long while. It's nothing that's her fault, it's all been mine. See, when I go on a hiatus, I actually do just leave everything relating to a certain subject, and return to it when I feel better. I wasn't ignoring Cindii, but the way the friendship seems to have built, talking to her without hypnosis seems kinda weird and daunting, and she's having troubles herself, and, with all due respect, the last thing I want is yet more problems entering my brain for me to think about. I hope that she understands completely that the reason I'm not doing any until I feel 100% is because I don't want to give less than that when it comes to doing it, otherwise it's pointless. My view on the hypnosis I perform is that both performer and participant should enjoy it and both must be 100% willing to do it and put their whole effort in so that it can be a fun activity for both involved. I'd rather give 100% effort than 80% or whatever and it be crap.

I actually performed some hypnosis on my girlfriend just over a week ago for the first time in many months. Since July I think. I'll go from top to bottom, explaining it all in whatever detail the words weave themselves into from my flapping tongue. So here goes...

She sat on her office chair opposite me, and I was half watching the television, half watching her. She'd found out an old pair of ugg boot style slippers, which were oddly attractive, and I have no idea why, but I felt compelled to hypnotise her and take advantage of them. I gulped for a moment, and every answer to every question she asked me was responded autonomously with a glazed over expression as I tried to muster the courage to ask to do some more hypnosis. Even asking my girlfriend is difficult, even though she's in a relationship with me. Anyway, after a few minutes, I grabbed her chair and wheeled it over to me and sat her facing me. I then proceeded to say "I'd like to hypnotise you again please", greeted with a slight grin and a "really?". Despite this, I'm still not sure if she enjoys it. But yes, after another 10 minutes of me trying to get my confidence back, we eventually started and I began my usual induction. She likes to start her inductions with her eyes closed because she says she can't concentrate, which should in theory make it harder for me to see her progress, what with the length of her hair covering her eyes for most parts. I continued my induction, bringing in the suggestions of feeling sleepy and relaxed, and gradually her head bowed forward, and she slowly slumped forwards on her bed, legs crossed, head resting just between that little cross you make when you cross your legs. There were occasional twitches coming from her, which I've learnt is as good an indicator as I'm going to get from her, and I did a little more deepening. I carried on the deepening for about 5 minutes, mostly using the idea of seeing a staircase, and also the deepening sleep trigger. Eventually, she was deeply under, and I had her sit up so that I could see her properly. After a few sleep triggers, I'd installed a freeze trigger and also a blank trigger, making sure both would only work if in a safe environment and away from others, and also only when I said them. Her freeze trigger was used for some freeze programming, making her into a robot, and she surprised me with the way she moved just like a robot would, which was cool. Her blank trigger involves me waving my hand in front of her eyes, and she enters a blank, mindless state whereby she just stares ahead. After a little play with these, I had to go home, and I haven't been able to do any since. Not seen her for over a week due to various events. I may do some more soon, but I'd like to see if her triggers have stuck or not. Maybe thursday...

But anyway, a major point of this post is to point out I'm still here, I still love hypnosis in both the general interest way and also the dominant, sexy, fetish kink kind of way, I just might not be as active as I used to be until everything is sorted out and I'm happy that I wish to continue. It might be days, weeks or months before I post again, but I WILL return to normal hypnotist service at some point in the near future. I have a few subjects that are requiring their master back...

Remember, Remember, To Post In November!

2009-11-06T17:06:00.001-08:00

Just a short post from me, as I'm very bored and nobody's really posted in a while.
It's been such a long time since I've actually met up with Melted for some hypnosis, the last time was mentioned in the blog post "The Great Escape", so it's been a good month or so. It's been strange recently. Melted's been ill and I've been working so we weren't really in the mood for any. So many things have been happening since September that are just taking their toll on us both. I don't know much about it for Melted, and if I did I wouldn't divulge any further for his privacy's sake. But for me, it's not been the nicest time for me. My boyfriend finally decided he "didn't want me" after 2 months of keeping me waiting, yet still thinks he can touch me and do what he wants to me without any consequences. My so called friends have drifted so far away from me I don't know what's going on, and then there's the strain of coursework, me being ill, and general issues, too!

I've not heard from Melted in a couple of days either, so I'm a bit down about that too, cos we're both in bad moods this week - but if he reads this he needs to know that I'm here, and I miss him! hehe.

So, let's just hope November ends better than it started!

xXx

Nikki Brooks Video Review

2009-10-26T16:48:00.000-07:00

As a favour for Hypnopimp, and in exchange for lovely hypno footage, I have written a review for the Nikki Brooks hypnosis event. I was a bit miffed that this was a show I could not see live, as it was aired at 2am GMT and I had to be up early the next day, so I was thrilled to receive the clips as a request for a review, as my last review (Jasmine) went down so well.

Now, I do apologise in advance, simply because for some reason my attention-span has become very short, and I tend to tune out of videos/films I watch on my laptop. But seeing as I'm not going to give away all of the details of the show, I'm only previewing the video (you'll have to buy it from hypnopimp's site to see all the goodies!) it shouldn't be that much of a factor (and it's nothing personal to you or your work HP :P)

So, as I mentioned, I will not be writing about every little thing that happens, as it is quite late, I don't want to ruin it for anyone willing to buy it and there's a hell of a lot of footage to review, so this'll basically be summarising the show, and my opinions :)

The whole of part one is effectively an induction. Again, it's a very different technique to what Melted uses, but it's still a very effective method (I maintain that he sounds slightly like Tim Robbins, refute this all you want!). She goes under very easily in my opinion. HP then does some imagination-relaxation work - using the idea of a staircase and bed making her feel more relaxed, which seems so soothing to imagine. He uses more techniques to remove her subconscious from her body, relaxing her almost instantly. He puts some triggers on her, including the classic Sleep, and slowly wakes her up. He uses some of the triggers, and she responds very nicely :)

It's odd in a way to watch someone be hypnotised in a different way to how I am, because it's totally not what I'm used to, and I don't think I'm in any position to say "He's doing it wrong" or "She's not reacting properly" because this technique is unknown to me, but from an audience perspective, she is pleasing to watch.

In part two, she's totally frozen to start with, then is unfrozen and put to sleep (I couldn't see her fall into her sleep as soon as he triggered her as he was in front of the camera - my laptop or the video?) She looks really interesting in this sleep, she looks so relaxes, but the way she's kinda hanging off the bed is quite nice to see. She eventually is made mindless, but I don't really know how to describe her and I don't think I'm the best person to review mindlessness (ask Melted!) it's still pretty hot though. My laptop is beginning to slow down as I watch, which is annoying! And my attention span kicks out, and I can't remember why she's suddenly laughing :/ but it's still quite funny and nice to see. Some partial nudity comes in at this point (and the girlie side of me can't help but like her bra) and it's also funny to see her reaction to her nudity.

Part three, as I know, starts most of the more sexual stuff, and I've never really seen things like this, so it's definitely an experience for me to watch. He does some binding stuff with her, and she keeps asking "what did you do to me?" and tries to unstick her hands with her feet, which is amusing. And some orgasms occur pretty early on (you get some good views of her by the way :P). There also is more hypnosis trigger play, but I'll leave that, and all of part four, for you to check out!

I'm not going to add anymore, as I think HP will thank me for leaving something to your imaginations, and also enticing you to visit his website and check out the clips of Nikki and all the gorgeous girls he has for sale!

All in all it was a great viewing experience, a lot of it was new to me, but was very nice and interesting to see. I've not been hypnotised since the last post, so I'm missing it a bit, and this video has made me miss it and want it even more!

I do apologise again for a crappy review, I don't really know how to write reviews well, and it is awfully late, but I give it my all and as long as HP and all of you know that I genuinely enjoyed this show and would recommend it to anyone who is interested in erotic hypnosis, whether they be subject or master (:P)

Until Next Time!

xXx

Trigger-happy

2009-10-12T08:12:00.000-07:00

So hello again everyone :) I am writing to you less than 10 mins after a rather naughty session of hypnosis, which has put me in an astoundingly good mood. This was the first time I've done joint (with my lovely gorgeous assistant Cindii) hypnosis which wasn't in the flesh, through a multi convo on msn. We also have an interesting twist today cause we have both slave perspectives!
Right so we began with simple routine slave things which involved asking us where our mind was, who was in control and what our purpose was, but then we progressed onto something new. My first amnesia trigger! (Apparently :P) Looking back on the conversation I see that we were frozen in time and made to forget everything we would normally remember over the duration of being frozen.
After this we were given orgasm triggers... which we could use on each other! So I could trigger Cindii to orgasm and vice-versa, (haha, I inadvertently gave a girl an orgasm). Most other things were quite hazy and I don't remember many details, or at all how I felt during all of this. Usually the only thought on my mind is pleasing Melted though, after all, I am a Slave with the soul purpose of satisfying him.
And hereeeee's Cindii:

Well, yes it's my half of the post now! As Tashh has said we had a very nice MSN conference hypno session. I can't remember much of it, but I know that somehow I did have a pretty amazing orgasm, and apparently me and Tashh were triggering each other to have them. Very hot!

It's been nice to see you all welcome Tashh so warmly, she is a great friend of mine and a wonderful fellow slave to Melted,
hopefully she'll be posting as regularly as myself and Melted. Aren't you lucky to have the views of two hypno-slaves! I think she'll be more than happy to answer any of your questions, so go ahead and ask!

I've been having a lot of MSN hypno from Melted, so naturally I was very unhappy about him being away for the weekend, but he more than made up for it last night apparently! I've posted before
about my tendency to be very negative about my responses, but luckily I've been feeling very positive about everything, until today. I awoke with a sense of inadequacy and I don't know where it came from. I think at some point during the trance, I must have done/not done something to make my blank self feel as if Tashh was a better subject. I told Melted about it, although I feel quite okay about
about everything, and he told me (well, my blank self) to stop being negative. I suppose Slave just wants to do everything right for her Commander (now known as "Sir"), so she feels if she doesn't do something "properly", she's a bad slave. Oh well, I cannot be held responsible for her thoughts, can I?

Ahh! and we never told you about our amazing ideas to make Melted more risque! We are now allowed to refer to him as Sir (which we find uber hot!) and we have let him know that we're always happy to try new and exciting things and he has no need to be worried :P so just remember that, Sir ;)

xxxxxx

So...

2009-10-05T17:26:00.000-07:00

You've all seen our new author, Tashhbot. I'm more than delighted that she has decided to join the Hypno Musings team and help blog to keep it interesting, as she is as good a volunteer as Cindii. You've made her feel welcome, and so I hope you continue reading her posts in the future along with mine and Cindii's and give us your comments on what you thought of the article.

Well, I'm 21 now. Still awaiting a few "hypno-presents". Cindii let me have a play last week, so I got one, but there are a few more I'm waiting on. It's something I definately enjoy, so why not? It's free, I'll make it worthwhile, and it would probably only take 15 minutes, so they win!

I'm feeling a bit unwell currently. It's only a mild cold at the moment, so it's nothing, but the thing that's annoying me is the stinging sensation I get when I spray nasal spray up my nose. Burns the back of my throat something stupid.

Anyway, to the point of this blog. As you may have read, me and Cindii had a very close shave last friday (despite me still being bearded). I invited her over for some hypnosis, believing my mum to be out. Things are going well, we have some fun, and luckily, we start fast so as to make sure that, if anyone appears, we've done some. I left the front door unlocked incase anyone came home (stroke of genius) and, lo and behold, 50 minutes later, a car pulls up, I complain that I hate it when that happens, and when I look out of the window I see my mums car. My first thought was "oh shit", which probably escaped my lips. I told cindii to grab her bag and shoes, then go out of the front door on my signal. I gave the "go" signal, she went, and I saw my mum open the door just before her, and look puzzled as she hears two chimes of the door-chime. However, she shrugs this off, and cindii is long gone. My mum decides she wants bread, collects the keys from the unlocked front door, walks out of the back door, around to the garage (located just outside our front door), and returns shortly after, placing the keys on the sideboard in the kitchen. So I use my cunning to distract her, slip the keys into my hands, then walk to the hall and quietly lock the front door. She was none the wiser. PHEW!!

But yes, I had a look at some of the suggestions, and unfortunately, some were either a bit random, or a bit too intimate for me to do with Cindii. I did do the sleeping pill, however. That was a rather interesting suggestion, as Cindii sat yawning away like a trooper in front of me, before eventually slumping into a sudden deep state of sleep-like relaxation. Rather interesting to see. Also interesting was the body parts suggestion I mentioned in my last blog. She responded really well to it, though I think there should've been more movement from the Cindii controlled body parts other than rolling of wrists. But I did find the experience somewhat enthralling, just like the mindsucking suggestion, which Cindii commented she "doesn't remember all of it". I love that, in a weird way. That amnesia. It's funny to tell someone after and get a "oh my god, really? Awesome!" reaction. Or to just not say, since they want me to take advantage, why should I tell them how I've done so? :P

Keep on giving suggestions. Remember, me and cindii aren't in a relationship, and I don't think my girlfriend would approve of another girl being stark naked for any length of time in front of me. So keep them coming, but be careful what you suggest :P

Thanks!!

Welcome to mee

2009-10-05T05:46:00.000-07:00

Well hello there, I'm rather new to this so I'm probably going to post this unintentionally under a completely different section like newborn kittens or whatever.
I'm Natasha, or it seems more commonly known as Tashbot (this is what Master Melted refers to me as :D) and I'm what seems is the newest testing subject (which quite frankly- I LOVE).

I have, like Cindii, always held some interest and skepticism towards the topic of hypnosis. I first met Melted through Cindii when I began getting close to her. She told me about Melted and his work and I was immediatley drawn in (probably cause she mentioned he was very cute).

Now a few awesome months down the line and I've been "under" a few times and I'm more interested to do more than I ever have been. I think a lot of the reason why I like it is that I'm an incredibly submissive type of person and there's nothing better than being told how to behave and controlled by someone else. Melted certainly seems to enjoy having the control in thses situations which makes everything better.

The most enjoyable thing for me so far has certainly been the triggers, it's entralling knowing that any second you could loose complete control of your personality and not be held responsible for your actions. I've been begging for a long time for a kitty trigger and I finally got one which I begged Cindii not to use on me at college (thank you for not doing that! ;D)

Anyway I have so much to write and I don't want to overrload anything or anyone so I shall leave now.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MELTED (yes I fail at being on time, always)

The Great Escape...

2009-10-02T14:20:00.000-07:00

As explained in the previous blog, I went to Melted's to do some hypnosis. He had a new idea, again mentioned below, that I was eager to try, although I was slightly confused by it. When I got there, he explained it to me and I completely understood it.

It was a strange feeling, being told that you could only control certain parts of your body. When I was blank, it was weird to see my arms/legs/feet moving without me wanting them to, and also knowing how she felt and why she was moving like she was. And again when I was myself. It was actually a nice experience, and I would definitely do it again.

I did some more "bound" stuff too, which I enjoyed a lot more this time around (no calling Melted nasty names this time!). He also placed a trigger on me that would give me a wave of pleasure, which in this case was immense happiness.

He did the mindsucking thing again. I was entranced by his fireplace until it sucked my brain straight out of my head, an odd sensation in itself, but I love it. I don't remember a lot from it, just that I "awoke" laying on his floor on the other side of the room.

Sadly, we didn't get to do much more today. It was going to be a short session anyway, but it was cut shorter by an unexpected turn of events, which led to me having to use my slave skills and Melted using his commanding skills to perform a great escape.

I was talking to Melted a lot last night about our session, because as some of you may have read, I tend to feel as if I'm not a good subject or I didn't respond to a suggestion as well as he wanted me too. I suppose it's down to how I always have to please everyone and make them as happy as I can. But Melted tells me off when I say things like that, or anything negative about my life/body etc. But I realised today, if I don't respond well to a suggestion, or I don't feel like I have, I can always ask to try it again, or just stay away from it. I'd normally want to try it again, but I still enjoy it regardless of how well I think it went. I will probably ask to try the separate bodies suggestion again, as I feel I could have responded better, and the sleeping pill one, but I suppose when you're fighting to stay awake, not everyone does over-dramatic yawns and stuff.

I'm hoping for more soon, as I'm a very eager girl! I'm also looking forward to what Melted writes.

xXx

EDIT - Also want to say Happy Birthday to my Commander Melted, have an excellent day! XxX

Idea's please...

2009-09-30T17:07:00.000-07:00

So, Cindii is coming over on friday to do some more hypnosis. Hopefully as a birthday present to me, she'll let me have a go at whatever I fancy, including one idea that I had earlier on. I explained it to her, and she understands what will happen completely (which is important to make sure it works), but basically, what will happen is that cindii's personality will control specific parts of her body, and blank slave personality will control the rest, and neither personality will have control of the other personalities parts. It sounds complicating, but it's actually a pretty simple concept which I'm hoping has some fruits from the labour. If not, then not to worry, but I have a feeling it might work.

If anyone has any idea's of what else I could have a go at, then gimme a comment below, explaining what you think I should do (and not just "sleeping pill" like in the hypnopimp chat. Explain what else should happen such as "fight the urge to sleep", "uncontrollable yawning" or "mind is removed gradually as the pill takes effect" etc etc.) So yeah, let me know what kind of things I could do, and I'll give them a go. Might get a couple of pictures if Cindii is willing, just to let you see a couple of examples other than the kitty-cindii persona. I can't promise anything, but if she feels up to it, then we'll see. But if not, then I shan't press the matter, and you guys will have to make do with a description of the events :P

I've had no luck with any of my other possible volunteers, either not heard anything from them, or just haven't asked them if I can hypnotise them. One was supposed to do it last friday, but it never happened, and another promised about 2 months back, and never appeared. I'm pretty gutted, 'cos I'm eager to hypnotise them both, but the chances of that right now are probably pretty low. We'll see though. One of them might actually get online to get hypnotised before my birthday on sunday. I'll ask for it as a birthday present :P It's free for them, and I enjoy it, so it sounds reasonable to me.

Anyway, that's enough for now. Again, if you have any idea's post them as a comment below, and I'll have a go at it :)

Thanks!!

Hypnopimp's latest video chat

2009-09-28T16:05:00.000-07:00

So Melted told me about the latest show on Hypnopimp's website and told me to check it out. Sadly I had not bought $50 worth of stuff from his site, so I was only entitled to the free showing.

It started at about midnight GMT. I didn't really know what to expect - what stuff would be done? what would the suggestions from others be like?

At about midnight, Hypnopimp got started. He introduced Jasmine, his very pretty subject for the evening, and asked her to get comfortable on his bed. He began to hypnotise her, using an induction technique very different to the one I get hypnotised by and love dearly. It was a long induction, he wasn't speaking very fast, but his voice was very soothing, sounding a lot like Tim Robbins, if I listened to him instead of watching Jasmine, I could have probably been entranced by his words.

It took her a while to get to the level of relaxation he wanted, but she got there in the end. He then placed a couple of triggers on her - a sleep one and a freeze one. He also placed a "sleeping pill" trigger on her, one which I found rather cool. It's a rather nice change to the conventional sleep trigger, as you have to desperately fight to be awake. Hopefully it will be something I can try in the future.

I don't know the name for the next one, as I was distracted when it was happening, but it was basically like her body was becoming stiff, to a point that if she was moved it would hurt. The only way to cure this was to clean her brain, something I was very intrigued to witness. He removed her brain and she just flopped down. It was a strange thing to see, being a subject myself, as we all react differently to triggers and things, well I think so at least.

He put her brain back in, and she was fine :)

He froze her a couple of times, and eventually turned her into a robot. It was nice to see as I have yet to witness a robogirl, maybe the next time Tash comes up ;)

Then the free show ended and the private one began - I can only imagine was was done there!

All in all it was a good show, one of the only down points was some of the other viewers as they were very picky and very critical of Jasmine, saying she wasn't a good enough robot, or whatever, but besides that, I liked it.

Maybe if I'm short of cash one day I'll be doing this kind of thing!

Until next time!

xXx

Cindii's first hypno fantasy

2009-09-26T14:58:00.000-07:00

Last night I was bored and a bit horny, so I decided to check out some MC Stories. I came across one (not literally!), can't remember the name of the story, but it was about a girl who's fantasy was to hypnotise a girl to become her slave. It was a good read, quite a turn on too.

A while later, after reading more stories and watching about an hour of The Shawshank Redemption, I finally went to sleep and was surprised with a lovely hypno fantasy instead of the usual nightmares or dreamlessness.

I dreamt that I was in a bedroom, my master came in and put me in slave mode. He told me to remove my clothes and lay on the bed. As I did so, he began to touch me, getting me hotter and hotter. I can't remember much more of it, but I was ordered to have sex and dream-slave-me had a mind blowing time ;)

It was a simple dream, but satisfied me!

I didn't want to wake up from it, but I felt very relaxed when I woke up!

This dream got me thinking about hypnokinks. I know for a fact that mind control turns me on, but in a way I'm limited to what I can do. I mean, I don't know how many girls are in the situation where their hypnotists aren't their partners. It's not like I want my dream to be a reality with Melted, it's more of a wondering of all the sexy, kinky things that can be done with hypnosis.

I'm not saying I'm sad about it, as I have tried some online, it's more of a curiosity.

xXx

Outdoors Mindlessness....

2009-09-24T11:42:00.000-07:00

So yes Tuesday was the day me, Melted and Tash have been looking forward to for a long time. We only had about fifteen minutes of hypno time due to college and that me and Tash went to buy some chips beforehand ;)

We walked around for ages as Melted was very nervous. After about 15 minutes of walking we found a nice spot (albeit very moist :P) in the sunshine. We didn't get to do a lot, but we did the mindsucking thing, which worked on my very quickly, no drooling this time though!

Melted also put triggers on us that the other could activate; Kitty and Blank. I have lots of stories about them, including them blanking me on the way home!

Me and Tash were having Blank/Cat wars all night, which my boyfriend and Melted both liked, although it would have been nicer to do more hypno with him that day, we did go on webcam and I finally got to meet Tashbot, who was made to blank me and I was told to do some things ;)

I put Tash under way more than she did to me, partly because I thought it was funny. I didn't use the cat one as much, but she is a cute kitty, hopefully not as cute as me!

We told our friend at college about it, as she is very into hypnosis, so we had to show her these triggers, and she loved them! So maybe in the future she will come over with me to do some.

One thing that angered me was when we showed another friend the triggers (bear in mind she has told me on many occasions that she wants to try hypno, but is scared to try it, and also yells at me for taking Tash with me, but that's another story). We showed her in lesson, and she simply turns to us and says "You're lying, that's all fake, you're putting it on to fool me". It actually upset me because it seems like she only said she wanted to try hypnosis to fit in with me and Tash.

She loses out on an amazing experience though.

Hopefully there will be even more to blog about soon. I'm hoping for some msn triggers next, as all of my triggers have worn off nearly, and maybe whatever amazing tricks Melted has up his sleeves! Sadly I've come down with a terrible cold and/or flu so I won't be doing any until I'm better, but I'll still be more than happy to answer questions, or even if you have any requests (within reason!).

Until next time!

xXx

In the open...

2009-09-22T06:17:00.000-07:00

Off to see Cindii and Tash in a little while, but it'll be a bit different today 'cos we'll be out in the open, as apposed to inside either my house or their house. It'll be a bit strange, and I might take a while to get comfortable with the idea that someone might walk past, but I guess I won't know until I try. Let's hope it's not too cold outside!!

I told that girl from work that I knew hypnosis (well, I told her i've made people's hands stick to things and used various techniques to make someone feel drunk without alcohol. Essentially, I was edging around the word "hypnosis" and saying "suggesting". So it's the same difference I guess). She seemed extremely interested, and so I tried to write a little script for her to read. I sent it to Cindii, who tried it, and it worked, but for one of her friends, it didn't work, so I was a little apprehensive about sending it, given that it didn't work on me either. However, I sent it, and haven't heard back yet, so my guess right now is that she's probably read it, and is laughing to herself thinking "what a loser". Yeah, I can be really negative at times, but I guess it makes the successes that much more enjoyable.

I'll be 21 in under 2 weeks time. The past year has trundled by. The time since christmas has flown, but the bit before then seemed to stutter on by and feel like it was grinding to a halt. I'm pretty excited for christmas this year. Cindii was procrastinating on what she was going to make for people this year. She settled on a few things that sounded pretty amusing, and the present for Tash shall be jointly composed of Cindii's handy-craft and my hypno-craft, so hopefully it'll be something of a special present, especially given the side effects it'll contain :P I'm not really sure what I'm going to be doing for christmas this year. I'll probably stumble around the house drunk, guzzeling whatever drinks happen to be in the way. I was ok last year, but the year before I recall being in the conservatory on my phone to a friend, pointing out the different seeds that were on the table. I think my 21st might be pretty similar to that. Should be out at mosh in derby if I can sort it out, so if there's any local UK people round here, give me a shout, wear something that will make me recognize you, and on october 3rd, I'll try and be there to say hi.

The art of persuation. A post on the MC Forum has made me dwell on this. I know this could be a seperate blog, but I'll probably have forgotten about it by tomorrow. Some people are born with the ability to pursuade people to do anything, either good or bad. Others, probably like myself, have this ability to blag through something when under pressure to think fast, and come out of a situation somehow better off than before by scripting a sentence containing utter bollocks to change someone's mind. Apparantly, there's a technique to it. People like Derren Brown can rattle off sentences with hidden words no problem. People like me can rattle off sentences with hidden words like an overheating machine gun. I'd love to be able to do those persuasive and decision influencing tricks, where you make someone actually believe that they don't need a car, they can ride a camel to work every day or something silly like that. It would be amazing. I'd rather like to be able to influence a football (soccer) team's ability by posting messages on advertising boards around a training ground and pitch to provoke a positive result without them realising it. So I think, with my time off from college now, I am in need of learning some more. So my aim, for this next year, is to learn a technique to achieve this, study the best, and perform a few examples of this myself. You never know, if I learnt hypnosis in 3 months, who's to say I can't do the same again?

I should write something...

2009-09-18T06:40:00.000-07:00

I'm commonly stuck for inspiration. For blogs anyway. But tonight it's a Derren Brown : How to control the nation thing that's on tv, and I'm pretty much looking forward to it. I was discussing it with the girlfriend last night (who was busy waggling her fingers in front of my eyes. I've not hypnotised her in a long time, but I'm reluctant until she actually says she wants to do it because she likes it, and not because it'd make me happy.) The object of the show tonight is to make people "stick" to their sofa (couch if you're american). I'll be sat on the end of my bed, so it won't be the same, but I think it'll be funny, especially hearing if Cindii got stuck. It got me thinking though.

One of the first triggers I ever gave was a "hand-stuck" trigger. Whatever the person was touching, they would stick to. It was brilliant, and it's something I've not done in a long time. I've had people stuck to chairs, walls, beds (orly?), floors, allsorts. I've moved on from some of the more common suggestions that would probably hold to a greater audience to doing the more intricate and possibly kinky ones. I have plenty of interest from people wanting to be hypnotised, more than I thought I would, some of which are due to Cindii's advertising ways :P But I think it might be high time to go back to basics and focus a lot on the common, playabout suggestions such as forgetting numbers, names, sticking hands, xray vision, seeing fairy's, reading backwards, that kind of thing. Of course, with Cindii, Tash and my girlfriend, I'll stick to the usual things, and toy with a few new idea's, but I think my brain's become over-run with kinkyness when I think "ooo, that girl would look so good blanked". It's not everyone's cup of tea, so I think I'll take that, and just suggest to a few people in the future "do you want to know how I can make you drunk without need for alcohol?". Though that does sound like I'm going to take advantage. Alright then, maybe I'll say "do you want to know how I can make that guy over there look like Britney Spears without need for makeup or surgery?". Though, again, it'd be a bit easier if they guy had shorter hair. I know what I mean, but I'll probably introduce people to the more stage-esque suggestions, and see where it goes. It's been a while since I had a girl begging me to control them. That was quite an amusing experience actually. I was home alone, talking on facebook chat, and the chat went to text messages. "control me", "make me do whatever you want", "I want you to turn me into your mindless plaything". Was somewhat overwhelming, and unfortunately, she didn't fall deep very well in person. My fault no doubt.

So what does it feel like when I've got the control of someone's thoughts? Contrary to popular belief, it's quite a serious thing. I don't sit thinking "ooo, I could just do that right now" or "that's so sexy". I sit thinking "right, how am I going to word this next trigger" or "hmmm, that's not really gone right". I spend a lot of time thinking about what to do next, looking for signs that maybe something hasn't worked, and making sure someone is ok. I mean, I do have my fun once a trigger is implanted. I find it quite funny to sit saying "bound" and causing Cindii to suddenly lock her legs and arms together and sit still saying "you bastard". Then bound her mind, so she doesn't actually say much at all. It's great fun, having that ability, and that much control, but I spend a while trying to think of what to do that someone might enjoy. It's harder than you'd think to do that, and if someone doesn't enjoy something, I feel bad and get more apologetic than usual (if that's possible!). But if I had the same control over a celebrity, I'd probably make the most of it, have loads of fun with them, making sure that everything I did was to their taste so that they'd come back again, and again, and again. It would be ace to be like "right, you will do this for me now, you are a mindless slave", but that wouldn't be likely. Hayley Williams, Cristina Scabbia, Sasha Grey, Kate Beckinsale, Keira Knightley, all of those, they would look amazing in that situation, but I very much doubt that they'd want to do any of the suggestions I have used.

I think my talents are slowly seeping out into wider knowledge amongst various people. A guy friend at work already knew that I could make someone drunk, and we had lengthy discussions about the concept. When I mentioned the Derren Brown programme on tonight, and said I could do what he's going to do, but with different uses of psychology, I got a few interested looks. Though a friend of mine is extremely excited about seeing Derren Brown next year, and seemed over the moon that she might be hypnotized, so I'm not sure if to tell her what I acquired from him. I think she see's me as a bit of a freak anyway. We'll see.

For now, work calls, so I hope you're all ok. Don't forget, you can ask me questions as well as Cindii. I know it's not as interesting, a male such as myself, when there's a perfectly attractive female hypno-kitty-slave to pour all of your questions over, but remember. Part of that personality is me. So ask away :P

Question Time Vol.3

2009-09-17T14:53:00.000-07:00

Got another question, I'd feel rude to ignore it!:

Thanks alot for answering, So here's another question to distract you from the drudgery of the real world. What made interested in hypnosis? when was the first time you were hypnotized?

I have a feeling I've written about this before, but I'll still answer.

My interest in hypnosis never really came about until I met Melted. I knew stage hypnosis existed, and people could do it - and the infamous Little Britain sketch - but I never thought that it could be used for fun and/or erotic purposes, suppose I was a little bit naive. Melted told me he knew hypnosis, and I was impressed as it's not something you stumble across everyday. It intrigued me after he told me what people use it for and things, I suppose in a way I was enticed by the chance to be totally submissive, but not necessarily in a sexual way. I admit I was a bit skeptical about it, but that was just because it was an entirely new thing to me.

The first time I was hypnotised was about 4 months ago, so I've not been doing it long. It was an amazing session, was on a high for the rest of the day. It was just basic induction and examples of things, but the feeling of being that relaxed and submissive was actually brilliant.

I sure am feeling popular now! Hopefully Melted will post a blog soon, I feel like I'm taking over his site! Keep the questions coming, but read back posts to see if it has been answered!

xXx

Question Time vol. 2!

2009-09-16T09:36:00.000-07:00

Got another comment on the last post that has brought up some thoughts:

Hi cindii,
That was a nice post. I have a question since you answered my cat one so clearly. Is being a slave alot like being a cat or is it a different expierance in terms of what you are thinking when your under the effects of the trigger. Are there some things you won't do when your a slave. What does it feel like when you choose not to do something or can you?

Being a slave is a different experience to being a kitty for me. When I'm Slave, I have none of my Cindii personality, I'm absolutely mindless. Kitty has my mind but doesn't act like me (because I'm actually not a cat! :D). I don't really think anything when I'm in slave mode, it's like i've been programmed to obey and listen to her commander's orders, and feel great pleasure when I've done a task well, or when Commander rewards her.

In terms of things I won't do, there's not really a lot Slave will refuse to do. Being nothing more than friends with my commander means I won't be asked to do sexual things for him, and only other things of a sexual nature online. Slave's pretty damn obedient, and she knows that her commander's wishes mean the most to her.

There's not really anything that Slave has refused to do, so she hasn't been put in the situation of "I don't want to do this, but I have to". If she really doesn't want to do something, she will simply respond to the order with "no, commander". If he asks why, she will tell him, but there would have to be a pretty extreme reason why she wouldn't want to follow an order. After all, she is here to obey.

Thank you "Anonymous" for that question, as I wrote in my reply on the post, I have had such a terrible week and it's good to take my mind off a lot of the bad things with something I enjoy dearly.

If anyone has anymore questions, I would love to answer them.

Hypnosismas Day :P

2009-09-10T09:41:00.000-07:00

I have had such a brilliant session with Melted :D, kind of sums up my feelings of today!

Not being hypnotised for over a month made me really nervous when it came to doing it again, so I was very giggly (the give-away of my nervousness) but got over that fairly quickly. We did some stuff, like the balloon on my wrist and other things to get into it a bit. I'm not going to write down everything we did, cos that's in Melted's blog, so I'll just write how each thing made me feel:

Kitty Cindii - obviously this is my alter-ego so I love every opportunity to be a kitten. Was very fun, as I've never had the chance to play with a toy, but also when the ball made a noise, Melted made sure she was ok, and took her mind off the toy.
Slave - not been a slave for so long, but I think her persona has changed a bit. She's still mindless but smiles more, which I don't know if this is good or not, but I still adore being an obedient mindless slave, getting the thrills of being a "good girl" ;).
Mind sucking Fireplace - I'd never done this before, and I really really enjoyed it. That feeling of blankness is indescribable but it was an amazing experience. This is probably one of my favourites now, it made me feel very good!
Bound - this was very fun. I was calling Melted every name under the sun, but I didn't mean them, I liked it a lot, as being "bound" is similar to something else I enjoy ;)

The whole experience has made me eager to make hypnosis a regular thing as I've realised just how much I've missed doing it and how good everything made me feel, maybe now I will do online hypnosis again, but I really do have the best hypnotist in the world :)

xXx

And so the fun ends...

2009-09-10T07:05:00.000-07:00

Kitty-Cindii has literally 5 minutes ago left my house, and what a fun time we had.

Started off with an hour's chat about this that and the other such as drinking, weird people and spongebob. Then we kicked off with the hypnosis, and she fell into a trance much easier than I remember. I set her sleep trigger, woke her up, then put her back into a deeply relaxed state again. I had her freeze in place with a freeze trigger, which was quite amusing when I kept posing her arms in different positions, then unfreezing her and being called mean (and that's just the start!). She responds extremely well to that trigger, it's crazy. I turned her mind blank for her too, so she sat staring with that brilliant blank and mindless face she has :P. I then performed the HypnoPimp-inspired mindsuck, and had her entranced by my fireplace, her mind slowly being absorbed into the faux-rocks that line it. She gradually succumed, her speech becoming a feint whisper, and then she was gone. Her arms were limp, though she still seemed to be able to move if told to, which I may alter next time round. We did this twice, and both times it worked extremely well, so I was rather pleased. I took from the floor in front of the fire (she'd gotten REALLY interested you see) and had her sit on the sofa again, and then turned her into Kitty-Cindii. She was really playful, batting a ball around the floor, but got scared when it made a noise. Her freeze trigger still worked, so there were a few moments where she was frozen Kitty-Cindii. Following this, I put her into slave mode. She stood up and me, stuck for ideas, decided to make her play air guitar. First thing I could think of, considering we're friend's etc. I had her repeat "i obey" to me, emphasising the feeling of great satisfaction everytime she said those words, and let her sit in slave mode for a few moments. I also had fun with a brain removal suggestion, where I suggested I'd removed her brain and she was completely mindless. I was amazed, she actually drooled. Something of a surprise, but I'm glad it worked. I had a little fun with that anyway. There was a play with clapping my hands turning her personality on and off, and also her saying the word "blank" causing her to go blank for around 30 seconds. Along with this, I took an idea from lex and used a "bound" trigger that either locked her whole body in place, or locked specific parts in place. That was good fun, saying "legs bound", "arms bound", "wrists bound", "name bound", "personality bound" and so on. I think she secretly enjoyed it, though I got called some rather unpleasant names :P She wasn't aloud to move until I said "move", so I had my fun :P And to top off the day, just as she was about to leave, I froze her and suggested that she would be completely blank and mindless until she walked out of the front door, where she would return to normal again, but until that point, she would be completely mindless. Was interesting seeing a blank mindless cindii put her shoes on and grab her bag :P

All in all, it was an excellent day. My girlfriend might be wanting me to hypnotise her later, so I might get another go, depending how we feel. Today, though, has definately cemented my opinion that Cindii is one of my best volunteers. Tash is the other one, though the fact that they're both attractive helps :P Not had much luck with Tash recently, she's not been online, and I'm missing her. I suggested to her that I'll sort it so that, when she reads my story, "Sarah Succumbs", she would feel all the pleasure that Sarah feels in the story. We've not yet followed up that idea, but there's plenty of time, and I'm excited at the prospect. Big plans for when she comes over next time, maybe the same as what I've done with Cindii today, but I'm definately looking forward to seeing Tash in the same position.

I'm sure she'll blog about it later :P Looking forward to hearing her thoughts :P

'Twas the night before hypnosismas...

2009-09-09T14:12:00.000-07:00

And all through the house
Lay a trail of wreckage
And maybe a mouse
After hours of work
I can't be arsed to clean
I'd get maid-cindii to do it
But that would be mean
I might have a go
When the energy's there
Or maybe I'll pile it
All on a chair
Tomorrow, I add
Is hypnosismas day
Kitty-cindii comes over
And I have a play
I apologise for poetry
It's not very good
I might stop it now
I think that I should

Anyway, poetry aside, yes, tomorrow shall be a day of hypnosis for me I think. Kitty-cindii is coming over for a play, which is much welcomed by me, mostly due to the opportunity to have a go with one of my favourite volunteers, but also because she has overcome her troubles and now feels ready to give it another go, which is excellent. I have a few idea's in mind, which I'm hoping will turn out good fun and be very effective. I'm met with apprehension and nerves again, just like the first time I hypnotised her, but it'll disappear as soon as she enters trance, and be replaced with pure excitement and adrenaline. I'm planning on making her into a kitty, blanking her mind, freezing her, doing a mindsuck inspired suggestion that is a favourite of mine from HypnoPimp, I might even make her into a slave. We will have to see. I've got a few other idea's for triggers, that may become apparant in the future, but I'll see how it goes tomorrow. Whether I set them, I'm not sure, but we'll see.

Either way, I'm thoroughly excited about tomorrow, and have been all day, so it couldn't come soon enough!! We will let you all know how it goes in our next blogs. I'm sure it'll be interesting reading ;)

Question Time vol. 1

2009-09-05T13:56:00.001-07:00

Just got a comment left on my Kitty-Cindii video:

"I have a question, what goes through your mind when your a kitty? do you truly believe your a cat, do you feel compelled to pretend your a cat? or is it something else?"

It's a difficult question to answer, really, mostly because I can't really remember being a kitty because I haven't used my triggers in nearly 2 months, but I will try the best I can.

Nothing really goes through my mind as a kitty, just go blank in a way, although if I'm being played with, Kitty kind of thinks about trying to catch the toy. There's not really a feeling of compulsion to being a cat, it's more like I believe I'm a kitty, but also aware that I'm not at the same time, it's very weird to explain how it feels. Sometimes if I'm not up to it and my boyfriend is being annoying and teases me with my triggers, it'll feel more like I have to do it, although still believing I am a kitty, but also aware I will not be able to act like a human until he says so. I don't have such strict 'rules' that I do with my freeze trigger. With my freeze trigger, I'll snap out of it if someone starts to tickle me, which doesn't happen with my kitty trigger, although the rule that I can only be triggered if I'm in private (so no public kitty!)

Keep up with the questions, it really helps me get into the spirit of being a subject again (but no date offers!)

xXx

P.S. Thought I'd write this non-hypno related bit as I'm telling everyone, I met Tim Minchin! (if you do not know who he is, get your bum to youtube right now, or no more Kitty-Cindii videos!)

Coming soon, to a blog near you...

2009-09-01T16:09:00.000-07:00

KITTY-CINDII!!!

I don't know when, but she will return, as her lovely kitty self. I've missed kitty-cindii. Only got to have a kitty-cindii in my prescence once I think. Was brilliant though, and I'm really hoping to see her again soon. She has a few things to sort out first, and then she'll let me know as soon as she's ready :)

I still remember the first time I hypnotised Cindii. We sat in my car at a local riverbank, since my house wasn't free and that was the only place available at the time. She took to it very well, despite my nerves, and was definately one of my favourite volunteers. There were obviously limits, since it was the first time we'd actually met up, but I was ok with that. It was going to take patience, and a lot of trust-building. I think the next time we tried it, it was at my house whilst my parents were away. Again, she went under easily, responded incredibly well to everything suggested, and of course still had limits. We had progressed a little, but there would be a lot more talking and getting to know each other before we went any further. I think the day she broke from her shell was when her friend Tash, also a favourite volunteer of mine, came with her. I was so nervous, it was 6 hours of chitter chatter before I even suggested we do hypnosis, and I nearly just left it and didn't do any through embarrassment. However, the opportunity to hypnotise two willing girls who were sat right in front of me was too much to refuse, so I bit my lip, and went for it. Needless to say, that was a day I won't ever forget, probably one of my favourite sessions ever, online or in person, despite it only lasting for around 30 minutes. It was the first time I'd ever hypnotised two people at the same time, so was a new experience there, but they both fell at nearly the same rate, and were both very willing and open to any suggestion I gave. I still emphasis and insist that Cindii's blank face is a thing of complete brilliance, and is the best I've ever seen. I didn't get to see kitty-cindii that day, though I did install the trigger that could be used to turn her into kitty-cindii. Tash was a slave, for both of us, and they were both completely blank and mindless, sat staring forwards. I froze them (they freeze perfectly, like dolls), made them feel drunk (the noise from which meant I had to shout their sobering trigger for it to work) and had them walk around the room, completely blank. If I get the chance, I will DEFINATELY be having them both over at the same time so as to have the same kind of fun again. Though this time, I fancy taking a leaf from hypnopimps book and suggesting the television has magical properties that causes a person's brain to be sucked out. Can just imagine the blank faces that I'd be greeted with. Pure brilliance.

Anyway, I hope you're all as excited about kitty-cindii's return as I am. Don't be afraid to leave a comment, we love them :P

...Similar to Cindii's post...

2009-08-30T17:52:00.001-07:00

I've just caught sight of a video on youtube that, frankly, made me feel sick.

Someone had requested that this person do a video where they get hypnotized, and half way through they say "I must obey". Granted, I get a kick from that when I try it with my wonderful volunteers, cindii and tash. But take this to mind. The person that said these words was a 12-13 year old girl. When I heard it, I felt sick to the stomach. Hypnosis is a wonderful thing, it's great fun and can be an excellent way of socialising and sparking conversation, but it's a deep, intricate and frankly dangerous thing to toy around with. For a girl of that age to be involved in a video such as that, where her brain is manipulated to do something suited and designed for an adult, it's just horrifying and disgusting to be honest. I sent a quick message to the girl in question to warn her of what she was doing, I was genuinely worried. She's young, and I don't want to sound harsh, but I'm sure she's a little naiive too, so when she see's that she's getting channel views, she'll see that the hypnosis video's are being watched most, and she will make more so that she gets more views. Exploiting that in someone so young is sick and twisted, and frankly, whoever suggested it needs sorting out and sending packing to the stone walled hell of prison.

If there's one thing I hate, it's paedophilia, or getting any sort of kick from a child doing anything. Whilst it might look like innocent hypnosis to some, when you consider that there are people getting off to it, it instantly becomes paedophilia. I've refused to hypnotise someone before that was asking because I was concerned of their age. They told me one thing, I believed another, and frankly, I wasn't taking that risk. I don't care if they're disappointed, I don't care if they think I'm a jerk, but if they don't seem old enough, then I'm not going to even attempt it. The sad thing about the internet is the fact that you're never sure who's at the other end. It's the opposite of my post the other day, that wonderful pseudonym you can hide behind so as you can break your kinks to people that have a similar kink in an adult environment suddenly turns bad when someone does the same thing, except uses it to lure someone so young into something unsavoury.

Frankly, it makes me feel ill.

Perverts!

2009-08-30T14:00:00.000-07:00

So I've been a member of the MC Forum for a while now, not posted a lot, I prefer to read everyone else's exciting stories. I've spoken to some of the other members, really nice people, always happy to talk. But it's been in the past couple of days that I've realised something, not just on the MC Forum.

Obviously, I'm a girl and, compared to my friends that are girls, and other girls around me, I don't really share their interests. Yes, I like clothes, make-up and things like that, but I enjoy things like Xbox, metal music and things that you would expect to have a predominantly male community surrounding it.

When I first got my Xbox about a year ago, I started talking to a few lovely guys from all over the world. I'd talk to 4 of them all the time. 2 of them would talk about films, music, games, etc and we'd have a lot of fun discussing them. One of them was a 19 year old from Florida who kept asking me incredibly sexual and obscene things, so I promptly blocked and reported him. The last guy is in his thirties, very nice guy, funny; all the things I'd like in a relationship (except the very large age gap!). He went through a phase of acting like the 19 year old, but put it down to him having a crush on me. We didn't talk for months (he was travelling), and we haven't really spoken since, out of drifting apart. Yes he was and still is a very nice guy, was lovely during my recent heartbreak (although part of me thinks this was for other reasons....) and I'd just gotten used to having his attention,I neither liked it nor disliked it.

But I started to notice a trend when I got a couple of messages of a forum member (I'm not naming and shaming) telling me he's horny and want me to go out with him (him being a 39 year old from America).
This 'attraction' to me, compared to that from the guy on xbox was completely different. I have a picture of meon MC Forum, not on my Xbox account, so this still confused me.

The point I'm making is, that it seems to me that if a (horny) guy finds a girl in a predominantly male environment, especially online, then she must want this kind of attention. It's nice to know that some people find me attractive, kind, etc but I really don't like having men, especially ones much older than me, perversing over someone they have never met and that reason meaning that it's ok to do so.

/rant.

xXx

Broadening the horizons...

2009-08-27T11:32:00.000-07:00

I've recently opened up a little and divulged the concept of erotic hypnosis to various people, ones I know and ones I don't know. It's actually surprised me the number of responses that go along the lines of "I wouldn't mind giving this a try" or "I find it fascinating". Even better are the ones that say "Yno, I would never have even thought of this if you hadn't said!"

I'm quite an enclosed person. I keep myself to myself, but I do sometimes ask for a little love (some would call it attention seeking, or whinging, or just being plain emotional). I decided to take a big step in opening this part of me up to strangers, with my true identity attatched. Obviously, my name isn't really "Melted Dreams", it's a pseudonym I created a little while back that influenced the username of this blog. I've always hidden behind it, using it as a kind of harry potter invisibility cloak where nobody could actually tell it was me unless I'd already pointed it out to them. That was my choice, one that still suits me now, but I decided to open up to people who actually seem very accepting and interested. Whether or not any of them will want to try remains to be seen, but the fact that it has been accepted without quarrel has rekindled my faith in various corners of society. I believe myself to be very open minded. I'll accept a person's sexual attractions no problem, but I was unsure if anyone would accept mine. Whilst I've opened up about my hypno-kink, there is another craving I haven't divulged, again due to embarrassment and shyness. In time, I might open up, given the opportunity, but for now, I'll remain as being "the hypnotist with a hypno-kink".

I guess a moral that could be taken from this is that we shouldn't see everyone as tight minded individuals with no concept of difference. If you throw yourself into the deep water and invite people to notice what you've said, you'll be surprised with the responses you will get. I, for one, certainly have.

Well...

2009-08-13T08:00:00.001-07:00

Now that Cindii has blogged again, I feel it's probably high time I wrote one too.

Not much has really been going on on the hypnosis front. I've had another go at it with Tash yesterday for a little while, which was fun, but the girlfriend hasn't really been as keen on it as she was, and another friend let me down the other day and still won't talk to me, so they can go and do one for all I'm concerned. It's not just because of the fact I won't get to do any hypnosis with her, it's the fact that she's just ignoring me in general. She had a rough time the other week, I sat and spoke to her for a good hour, cheered her up, and now she's not talking at all. But oh well.

I really need a shave. My excuse right now is that hypnotists have bears in a lot of pictures, it is supposedly the sign of evil or something, but in reality, I just can't be bothered shaving it. My hair grows at something of an exponential rate that is mystifying. It's a bit like evan almighty. He shaves, then it grows back instantly. Mine isn't instant, but I do have an impressive stubble the next day.

I'm sure you'll have read Cindii's blog and also her thread on the MC Forum regarding hypnosis. She's going through quite a tough ride at the moment, and I think she would definately appreciate all the support she can get. I'm here for her, her friends are here for her, and I hope our readers are here for her too. I won't be doing any hypnosis with her until we know why she's shaking, and also until she's ready to do some more, and I hope we can all give her the best of luck in finding her feet again and getting back to her old kitty-cindii self.

Here's a question. How many celebrities do we think have thought about the kinkier side of hypnosis? And how many do we think would be enthusiastic to try it? I bet there's at least a couple out there that would be more than eager. Lemme know your thoughts! I've read the thread on what celebs we'd like to hypnotise, but I wonder how many would.

Anyway, bye for now!

Which is better?

2009-08-12T17:31:00.000-07:00

This is probably the most I've posted without having hypnosis sessions to blog about!

Me and Melted are talking about possibly meeting up later, or in a few days. Normally I'd be the first to say yes, as this is one of my favourite things! But there's some things making me think otherwise this time:

1 - Yesterday I started shaking uncontrollably, no matter what I did it wouldn't stop, and it's still happening right now. So I don't know if I'll be better in the next few days or not.
2 - Because me and my boyfriend are not together anymore, and I had triggers set for him to use in sexual ways, I don't feel like I should be getting turned on by hypnosis or doing erotic hypnosis when I'm single, cos usually Melted would tell me to imagine my now-ex when he was giving me hypno orgasms.

Hypnosis is and always will be a big turn on for me, but should I feel wrong about indulging in it with someone who is not my boyfriend, but who can't use the "imagine you boyfriend" card when doing erotic hypnosis?

Any comments would be welcome.

hmmm...

2009-08-09T16:14:00.000-07:00

Cindii has not been a happy kitty this month! She has not seen Melted for over a month now, so has been having hypnosis-withdrawal, and she is newly single, much to her displeasure.

So as you can tell I've been feeling very sad about generally everything. Melted has been a great friend in comforting me and cheering me up, but whenever the subject of hypnosis arised, I just wasn't in the mood or I was too busy to meet up. I know I can't really complain about the lack of hypnosis if it's my own fault for it not happening, but I just wish I was feeling up to doing it. Melted has told me a couple of things he'd like to try, which I think is easier for him to say to me now there's no boyfriend in the picture, and I'm really excited about trying them, the question is when will I be up to doing anything?

Sadly this was only a short post, I think I needed to get some stuff off of my chest to make me feel better and Melted wanted me to blog hehe.

Till next time!

xXx

The tide of thoughts...

2009-07-25T14:32:00.000-07:00

So, I've had a think to myself, and I guess I get myself down a lot. I was in a pretty dark, crappy mood when I wrote the last blog, but I'm not feeling too bad right now. Aside from having to cancel plans to do more hypnosis with Cindii, and also a few problems with the girlfriend and her temperament, things aren't too bad I guess.

I've kinda missed doing regular hypnosis with some people. I guess, sometimes, it's the limits that are over my head. Sometimes, the fact I can't do some things makes it a little less fun, but also the severe lack of idea's kinda slows the process down. Me and Cindii had a conversation last night I think about when she came over to do hypnosis with Tash. I remember that, from that session, her blank mindless face was actually the most amazing expression I have ever seen. You see it on video's and clips from other hypnotists, and the only one really before that I'd seen which particularly had a hit with me was one of the clips on Hypnolust with Kendra James. The transfer from normal chatty to blank faced on that was just amazing, but Cindii's face was actually more enjoyable. Tash's face was also great, though she would look at me as though begging me to tell her to do something. She's very submissive is Tash, which is awesome, but I still wonder what to make her to do. We had Cindii skipping round the room and Tash stroking a cat ornament on the mantelpiece at one point. Then me and Cindii were telling Tash what to do, and had her mess about with a guitar hero controller like it was a real guitar, and also stand in front of us and face straight forward, completely blank. I decided it'd be fun to have her say "I obey" too, which was pretty sweet.

Oh, I'll also explain the reason Cindii calls me commander as apposed to master (as Tash calls me). At the time, there was only one person that Cindii would call master and, as such, I had to find a different name for her to use to address me whilst in her mindless slave persona (yes, I do love that mode so much!). After a little thought, I decided on commander, the idea coming from a computer game I used to play called Command & Conquer, amazing game by the way. But yes, I told Slave-Cindii to call me commander in response to every order, and she took to it like a duck to water. Every response "Yes commander", "I obey commander", "done commander". It was quite a treat. With Tash, I can have her call me master, since she addresses nobody else that way, and I rather enjoy it. They're both definately awesome subjects, much more enjoyable with a webcam involved, but definately ace. Maybe some day I'll do a photoshoot with Tash or Cindii, maybe both, and have the photo's up to either purchase or just view for free, depends how I feel and if it happens. It'd probably be 1/4 free, 3/4 to purchase, that kinda thing, but we'll definately have to see. It's something I'm keen on.

Anyway, if anything else crops up, I'll blog about it. I'm hoping to be in the hypnopimp live webchat as melteddreams if I can remember to log in at the right time, so if you see me, say hi :)

Chow for now!!

Clargledargle...

2009-07-19T03:31:00.001-07:00

Thought I'd pop my two cents in here, since it's been a while since I blogged.

I'm having what Picasso would call a "blue period". That's not in a smurf-like-once-a-month way, but I'm feeling a bit down. Got a damn bug that I'm thinking possibly could be swine flu since 3 people at work have had it, and I'm just generally having a rough and tumble time.

I'll apologise to Cindii for a start for not doing as much hypnosis with her. I enjoy it, but I do begin questioning occasionally whether I should keep doing it. I want to, that I'm pretty sure, it's just that, when I'm down in the dumps, then I kinda give up on a lot of things because I don't see the worth of me trying. I'm not emo, just have drastic mood swings.

I've been thinking a little about hypnosis, and I'm sure many will agree, the Kitty-Cindii video was awesome. I'm not all that sure what else could be tried without any sort of idea's being put forward to me. It sounds like Cindii is ready to make more video's, hopefully, so it would be awesome to have some idea's popped in the hat as to what her boyfriend or I could make her do. Nothing involving stripping or being undressed, though, 'cos I know she's a little too shy for that, and that's not something I'm going to change.

Anyway, peace out until I next blog, hopefully happier.

Happy Birthday to Me!

2009-07-18T15:51:00.001-07:00

Another year older now! I had a lovely birthday, little contact with Melted, but we were both busy and I had a wonderful time with my family, my boyfriend and my best friend - even though that fun ended at midnight when my boyfriend's mum kicked him out of his room because she thought we were going to be having a mad threesome (not really but makes the post better :P)

It's been such a good week! I mean I haven't done a lot of hypnosis with Melted, partly because Tash didn't come up early enough for us to meet up with him, but the boyfriend has been enjoying the triggers. He showed Tash Kitty-Cindii and she loved it. He was also freezing me a lot and making my hands and legs stuck to the bed. It turned me on a lot! But sadly nothing could be done about it!

A short post from me, but I thought I better keep updating. There may be some more Kitty-Cindii or Frozen-Cindii videos, depends what else I can (or Melted or my boyfriend can) think of doing!

xXx

Kitty-Cindii is here!

2009-07-10T16:30:00.000-07:00

Well I've been having lots of fun with my triggers!

My boyfriend has been randomly freezing me, and putting me in random positions, some which are very naughty! He was having a lot of fun, even more so when he spoke to Melted on msn, who told him that my mind can still be controlled when I'm frozen. He loved that he could tell me to move and undress etc, but also that he could put me in slave-mode but I wouldn't obey to things outside of my safe zones that were put in place with my freeze trigger. He did so much with me last night; making me a playful puppy, making it so my hands were "glued" to the headboard, getting me to get into a certain pose and then making me move. As soon as he called me "good girl", I was so turned on! But, hey that's what I like! :D

The video of Kitty-Cindii was made, hence the title of this post. We had to do a couple of takes, as in one when he was trying to "scratch my tummy" I hit my head on the bottom of his bed - Ouch!. But yeah, here it is. Please tell me what you think of it, because I'm fairly self-conscious, and I think the video could've been much cuter.

xXx

This week....

2009-07-08T15:50:00.000-07:00

Cindii got her *Freeze* trigger today! It was great to try out, and of course the boyfriend was only interested in doing one thing whilst I was frozen (you can guess, I'm not giving any hints). When I tried to resist he froze me and moved me so I wasn't resisting (if that makes sense), but he ruined it when he started tickling me.

When I got my trigger I was told that I would only obey it when I was in a safe environment. And my boyfriend knows that tickling makes me feel unsecure, therefore doing it when I was frozen made me feel unsecure and I snapped out of it. Luckily he now knows he can't do things like that, but he still likes it. He prefers Kitty-Cindii, but she's more playful. Video of Kitty-Cindii should be up by the end of the week.

Slave is being obedient as usual, never failing to do as commander says. Commander has told me to write this blog, so I must be very obedient. I enjoy being a slave a lot and really like obeying Commander, I couldn't disobey him if I wanted to, but I wouldn't want to disobey in the first place.

The whirring of cogs...

2009-07-06T16:08:00.000-07:00

As with Cindii, I've found in the past there are occasions where the methods I learned haven't been as effective as I'd like. I've had to adjust what I do, think long and hard about the best way to resolve an issue, and then try putting it into practice. It's easier said than done, 'cos some things really are a menace to rectify, but moments such as the other day when I figured out how to get Cindii's triggers to stick really do make me happy. It was a rather arduous process trying to work it out, but in the end, it came down to her personal preference. My usual methods involve the suggestion of following a trigger, not necessarily ordering someone to follow, and I know cindii to be a submissive girl who likes to follow orders, so figuring the answer out seemed a bit stupid of me 'cos I should've realised earlier. However, the fact I've FINALLY figured it out has been good news all round because, not only has it helped me, it's cheered cindii up, and also her boyfriend has been having some fun with her cat trigger, so the fact it's worked is something I am immensely proud of, and hope cindii's boyfriend has a lot of fun with that cat trigger, possibly making a video for us this week so that we can see how well she responds :P

I guess seeing a trigger in action, and being enjoyed by the person triggered makes me feel proud too, because I can think "I helped do that". And also, it's fun to try some triggers out myself, mostly on my girlfriend, because it's kinda part of me inside them, albeit their head. I'm always careful what I do, though. I'd never regress someone to younger days, never have anyone feel pain, and I certainly wouldn't do that stage trick where someone thinks a sock is a bird and it gets slapped on a table. My morals wouldn't allow me, and I think it's really dangerous. Every trigger I've given has included "if it is safe to do so" or "you will only respond to {persons name}", just incase the trigger crops up in real life elsewhere. Last thing I'd want is to issue a trigger where I say "Stop" and my girlfriend freezes in time, and then, on her driving lesson, doing emergency stop, she freezes and ends up crashing. So yeah, I'm extremely careful, possibly too much.

Anyway, enough of the sentiments. Hoping to have Cindii around again some point this week possibly to do some more hypnosis. Shall have to see. I'm very eager to have both her and Tash round again, maybe explore a little more. Both are very fun volunteers, and extremely submissive. Once they're under, any hint of "slave mode" and they take it, turning into submissive, obedient slave girls calling me "master" (or commander in Cindii's case, as "master" is of particular sentiment given to only one person in her life). Never thought I'd enjoy the prospect of having someone do what I say, whenever I say, as much as I have because it just seemed the wrong thing to do. But if they want to do it, heck, it'd be unfair if I said "no, I'm not going to do that" since they'd said they just want to be ordered around. Both have been hypnotised online, and Cindii has just found out her xbox camera works on her laptop, so I've had a bit of fun with that. Chances of webcam chat are highly unlikely, but I'm sure, some day, they may accept a multi-way msn conversation or the like whilst tranced... If not Cindii and Tash, both of my slaves will, they always obey :P

We'll see...

Yesssssss.....!!!

2009-07-05T15:50:00.000-07:00

Well, my weekend has been eventful!

After Thursday, I spoke to Melted Dreams (as you know from the last part of my previous post), and he did some more hypnosis on me. This time it was a little more erotic, but not much. He made me his slave again, and being the good slave that I am, got lots of praise, which was much appreciated. He then told me to think of my boyfriend and achieve orgasm from it, which I did. Twice. They weren't as powerful as "real" orgasms, but the feeling was still there a lot. He then helped make my triggers stick, like my relax and cat ones, and they have stuck for much longer. My relax trigger has worked tonight, after 2 days of it being put in place, compared to them usually only lasting for about an hour. I'm very pleased about that.

I'm extremely happy that my catgirl trigger has stuck, and my boyfriend is too! He loves the playfulness and that he can 'stroke' me and hear me purr. He pretended to use his hands as toys so I'd chase them and pounce on them, which was fun. I've also noticed that he only uses the trigger when I'm just in my underwear, or totally naked. Obviously I can't do anything about that, but I love it when he has the power over me........

I'm also pleased about being asked, along with Tash, to be one of Melted Dreams's regular volunteers. It's nice that he can have two people, besides his girlfriend, who love hypnosis that he can practise on either in person or online, but it's also nice knowing that I'm not a rubbish volunteer.

The good thing is that it's my birthday next week! And the lovely Tash is coming up again to celebrate so we will be more than likely partaking in some more hypnosis - and hopefully it'll be extra nice as a birthday present! *hint hint*

xXx

Cindii & Tashh

2009-07-03T07:41:00.000-07:00

I've been mentioning about the prospect of Thursday in many of my other posts, and yesterday was the fateful day in which me and my good friend, Tash, got hypnotised together! It was Tash's first time meeting Melted Dreams in real life and she was a little bit nervous, but we both calmed each others' nerves (Yes, I still get nervous when I meet him, it's just because I don't know what to expect!). We were at his house for a good 5 or 6 hours, but didn't get around to doing hypnosis for ages (Damn the tennis and those ridiculous children's programmes).

When we began, we did the basics just so we could get relaxed and then came the exciting stuff! We both got to wander around our gardens, and I found mine had turned into a duck pond! We also became his two mindless slaves (which I think he loved) after de-activating our personalities, it was a weird sensation, but I really enjoyed it, and so did Tash. We then "became drunk", which was a great laugh because we are so giggly when we're drunk properly and it was cool to feel drunk without actually drinking.

He then used our "Freeze" triggers and made Tash a mindless slave again, but with me being her "mistress" and Melted Dreams being "master". We found allsorts of random things to tell her to do, but eventually we ran out of ideas - (that's why I hate being the dominant one, I can never think of things to say/ask/tell). It was different being the one telling her what to do, and I didn't really like it. hopefully next time I can be the mindless one! I also got a trigger set for me so that I could be a catgirl whenever my boyfriend said "cat", but it didn't really work as my triggers dont hold for more than a few hours sadly.

All in all it was a good day, I'm a bit despondent that I didn't get to be the one bossed around, and still that there's things in hypnosis that I'd love to try and I'd probably really enjoy, but won't be able to experience, but I suppose I'll have to deal with it. After all, there's always next time!

*EDIT*
Scrap that last bit, I did have an amazing day, and although I felt like that about it, talking to Melted Dreams about it really changed my perspective on it. It was nice to hear his view on it. He is a great hypnotist and friend and I really hope to do some more with him!

xXx

Well, there goes thursday...

2009-07-02T13:04:00.000-07:00

Well, what an awesome day I had (once my nerves and shyness ebbed away)

Of course, today was the day that me, cindii and her friend, tash, had been looking forward to. It took about 4 hours or so before I plucked up the courage to suggest we do the hypnosis (yeah, I have MAJOR confidence issues when I want to... Or when there's the opportunity to actually turn some nice girls into slaves). I'm sure Cindii will recount the experience in her own view, but it was definately interesting, even if it was a little short.

Started out with the induction, which both girls took amazingly well and dropped nice and deep very fast. I was amazed by tash's responsiveness, if not really excited 'cos I got chance to finally play for real. So yeah, I dropped them nice and deep, made sure they were really relaxed, and their eyelids fluttered as they slowly succumbed to the deep, relaxing state they were falling into. Was rather a nice sight, especially to see tash willingly giving up her mind in such a way that she was literally dropping as soon as I used her sleep trigger. Straight away, when I issued it, I would use it, and she would fall backwards into the back of the sofa, and would be away with the fairy's. Was brilliant, and probably the best response I've ever seen in a person. Once I'd issued the sleep trigger, I decided it was time to make me a couple of slaves. I turned them both blank and mindless, and awoke them, cindii's mindless body being in control of an extremely submissive and equally mindless tash. Tash was being told to stand, to walk around, whatever cindii told her to do, she would do. I put them out again, and issued a sleep trigger, waking them up again as my slaves, as obedient servants that would do what I asked. I had them walk around, freezing occasionally, and ordering them to sit down, and giving a few other orders, which I was amazed to find the responsiveness of both girls in slave mode. Was an absolute delight.

I focused mainly on tash, mainly because cindii has a boyfriend and I wouldn't compromise the relationship, despite letting her experience hypnosis and hypno-slaves, but also because it was tash's first time being hypnotised in person, and she'd expressed a will to be controlled and made to think she wasn't herself. It was this that originally had me near desperate to hypnotise her, and I gave her an online demonstration of being a slave, and also made her into a fembot for a while. The length of time her trigger's last is fairly pleasing. A week or so after her first online induction, her sleep trigger still worked, which I was delighted about. She was an amazingly responsive girl, and I honestly hope I can do lots more hypnosis with her in the future. I turned her into a mindless slave that would address me as master, and cindii as mistress, and woke her up. She sat, staring at us both, and we issued orders, and she followed without query or complaint. Had her standing in front of us, facing us, and I interrogated her as to how much she was enjoying being a slave. She seemed to be enjoying it a lot, and had I not had the nerves I'd experienced at the time, I might've had her be a little more slave-like, made her do things for me around the house and generally played a bit more. But also my morals kinda took over. Since I've got a girlfriend, anything that might seem erotic to me, I'm hesitant to do, so that's probably why some things didn't happen, but then again, if I can kinda shake off the thought that everything is erotic, I might have a willing slave on my hands to play with whenever I want... I hope.

It was a short session, though I also made them both feel drunk, and also had them walk around their own garden's in their mind (a common thing I do to show that it's not just erotic), but it was certainly enjoyable, and I feel bad to have been slightly excited by the prospect of having my first ever completely willing personal slave. But Tash was incredibly responsive, extremely enjoyable to hypnotise, and someone I really really really want to hypnotise frequently in the future. Cindii's response was also pleasing, since she'd never let me make her mindless in person before, but I think she's trusting me a lot more now, which is brilliant, so I can make sure I make her sessions enjoyable. Hopefully a few one on one sessions with tash might be on the cards, but I will see.

Anyway, I eagerly await Cindii's post, just as much as I'm sure you guys do, and honestly don't think that anyone else in the world had as good a day as I've had today. Cindii, a brilliant volunteer, and Tash, an incredibly responsive and incredibly pleasing hypno-slave. Here's hoping that's a permanant thing :P

Expectations....

2009-06-28T18:27:00.000-07:00

Well it's 2am and I can't sleep, so I've decided (sort of) to write another blog! we've written so many in the past week it's unreal!

There's not been much hypnosis going on for me to talk about (which I'm not happy about!), but I have the prospect of Thursday to look forward to! Just to recap, my friend's coming to visit me and she's expressed great interest in hypnosis, so we're going to meet Melted Dreams to try some in person. I'm so excited about it, because I don't know what to expect! I know he wants to try some hypnosis on both of us, both seperately and together, which could be fun, but he won't tell me what's planned, which makes Cindii very curious! =P

Me and my friend talk about pretty much everything and ever since hypnosis has been in the picture, it's been in our conversations. We've discovered that we like the same things sexually that can be part of hypnosis, mostly submission, we're huge fans of that! But we're not just interested in the "sexy" part, we're both very interested in what can be done when you're under!

I'm hoping that this day is a good experience that I can blog about in great detail!

I'm becoming more and more interested in hypnosis and I'm always eager to try new things in it, some I'll never be able to try until my boyfriend can learn hypnosis! I'm a very experimental girl, and it wasn't long for me and my boyfriend to talk about erotic hypnosis properly. I showed him a few websites with lists of things that can be done and then talking about what I can do with Melted Dreams (obviously my boyfriend doesn't want me getting naked with another guy!) and what he'd like to see/try on me. One of the suggestions was cat/puppy girl. My boyfriend really liked the idea of this, especially after I was pretending to be a playful kitten earlier on, he'd want a more authentic effect! (if that sentence didn't make sense, I'm sorry, I'm sleepy). So Melted Dreams said he could put a trigger on me to turn into kitty-girl, which would be excellent!

I'm still intrigued about the things I'm "not allowed to try", but I suppose I'll have to live without!

xXx

Well, I didn't expect that...

2009-06-28T05:17:00.000-07:00

Hey

Has been a long week, what with work and all. But, I had a bit of a shock last night, if that's the best way of putting it.

A friend of Cindii's had mentioned that she wanted to try hypnosis, and she seemed rather eager. Needless to say, I was also somewhat eager to give it a try, can't turn down the chance if it comes running at you! But yes, last night, we decided to have a go at some hypnosis, and she went under rather fast and effectively. I showed her the induction first, just took her through it, then woke her up with a sleep trigger in place, to see what she thought of it. She seemed to enjoy it, and said it was a rather nice experience. The conversation went on, I asked if she'd want to do some more some time, and she said she would, and then, when asked what she'd like to do, it appeared that she was fairly similar to cindii, except possibly more eager to do some sort of mindless slave trigger (her description of "having 2 slaves" this coming thursday told me so much), and she likes the idea of being told what to do rather a lot. It was very intriguing, yet quite exciting, so naturally, I obliged and decided to show her the mindless state over msn, which she thought was cool.

But yes, this thursday, Cindii and her friend shall be coming over, hopefully to do some hypnosis, and it should be rather fun. I'll make a blog about it afterwards, and hopefully Cindii will too, and I might even ask her friend if she would like a space on this blog. Like I said, when the chance is there, take it. Her reaction took me by surprise though, but in a good way. Think she will be a rather interesting and fun volunteer.

Times ahead look good.

Just a short one from me :)

2009-06-22T17:31:00.000-07:00

Well wasn't last night a lot of fun! It's nice to show both sides of me on here: awake and tranced, tell me which you prefer! hehe :P

Yeah I've always been interested in the whole slave thing, not just in a sexual way, but also in history. It's a bit odd how something bad 200 or so years ago has sort of created a fetish people have. I don't have a major slave fetish, it's just part of my liking for submission, plus it's a lot of fun!

In the next couple of weeks I should have more to post about, which is always a good thing. My friend is coming up to see me and she's shown an interest in hypnosis, so we're (well, Melted Dreams is) going to introduce her to the joys of it, so we'll both probably write about how that goes. Also, I'm hoping for a couple more hypnosis sessions off-MSN, maybe try the slave thing again or maybe try and think of some cool stuff to do - but whatever happens, it'll mean there's more to read!

xxx

Welcome Cindii...

2009-06-22T16:04:00.001-07:00

As you might've noticed, we have a new blogger added to this page. Cindii is the girl referenced in a few previous posts who lives about 5 minutes walk from me. I think she's introduced herself well (both awake and tranced ;) ) but think I'll add a little bit to give an idea of what you guys should expect.

As she said, she's a fairly (very) submissive person and she seems to enjoy losing control. It took a few sessions for her to get comfortable to being hypnotized by me, but I hope I've put across the impression I've intended and got her trust (which I think is evident in her last post "slaves"). She responds incredibly well, both in person and over msn, and I think she'll be a very interesting blogger whom we will most likely strive for more to read. I know I enjoy her telling her experiences, gives me a sort of ego boost I guess, but makes me feel good again, and pleased I actually can do hypnosis.

When I first started talking to her, I think hypnosis was one of the early things I mentioned. I'll be honest, usually I mention it in the hope I might find another volunteer to allow me to practice (and get that secret kick from it). When Cindii found out, she was rather excited, and seemed somewhat eager to give it a try. So, obviously, I obliged. Our first session on msn couldn't have gone better, and our session in person went just as well. Obviously, she wasn't completely comfortable to accept all suggestions, but I knew that, if I built that trust, then she might come out of her shell a little more (which is ironic I used that sentence, since family guy is about "Quahog Clam Day"). The past two sessions, she's been more willing to try things out, and obviously, last night she had a feeling of slave-mode, which I hope she enjoyed. She's very responsive, and I do very much hope that she remains willing to do hypnosis.

Also, may have two more people willing to give hypnosis a whirl, both of which I'm excited about because they're both eager to go for it. One I'm more eager to try, and she's seemed very enthusiastic, despite not being able to get in touch for the past few days, but the other I'm still quite eager as it may produce my first ever video. So yeah, could be a very good few weeks ahead, hopefully this week and next week provide the best sessions with one of the girls, but also hope the other provides similar fun.

Anyway, another blog out. Any questions for me or Cindii, drop us a comment, also, Cindii may need encouragement to post, though I'm sure I could do something about it if she's not willing to ;)

Chow!!

slaves.....

2009-06-21T16:38:00.000-07:00

I love people having control over me, which is why I love being a hypno-slave. I've done it a couple of times before and I love how I don't have to decide anything, Cindii is so disobedient and being a slave puts her in her place. It's nice saying yes to every order, makes me feel powerful in my own way somehow.

I currently feel very good, like I've been praised for something. I don't know what, but it's something. It also feels like I've been having a very good time, my heart feels like it's returning to it's resting rate for some reason.

Short post, I know, but I wanted to tell you about how good it is to be a slave, I really like it.

xxx

Hi!

2009-06-19T15:12:00.000-07:00

I thought I'd introduce myself after being forced to post on here! I'm Lucinda, but most people call me Cindy :)
I was told to post about my experiences with Hypnosis after talking to Melted Dreams and meeting him a few times.

We started talking to each other a few months ago and the subject quickly got on to hypnosis. A small part of me has always been interested yet sceptical about it, but being told about it by someone who can do it intrigued me more and more. I eventually asked if I could try it so we met up a few days later.

I was so nervous at first because I've never tried anything like this before, let alone with someone I barely knew. But he was really understanding about it (although he took my fast breathing for arousal instead of nerves!) and I had a really good hypnosis experience :)

I've become more interested in hypnosis since and have since tried more things, such as being in a drunk state, which was a lot of fun :P. I suppose one of the reasons I like it so much is because I'm fairly submissive, I don't like to take control, I'll let other people take control of me (wink wink :P) and hypnosis is a good way for me to relax and just let someone else control everything.

I haven't had hypnosis for a while. I tried some on MSN about a week ago, but not tried any on MSN or in real-life since. I've been fairly busy recently, which has made trying to do it more difficult, but now I have 10 weeks where I'm going to have lots of free time!

And hopefully, if I get more hypnosis done, I can post more!

xXx

Just a note...

2009-06-19T15:10:00.001-07:00

I've just noticed that it wasn't on open comment. Now, I might be being naive in thinking that people might've wanted to comment, but haven't been able to, but I've made it so that comments are fully open to anyone, registered or not. Only noticed as fiddling through the settings.

Now please, prove my thoughts correct, post some comments :)

Well...

2009-06-19T08:24:00.001-07:00

Another month past, and over half way through June. I write this just before I leave for work, thought I'd better blog very soon since it's been a month.

Download has been and passed, and I had a brilliant time. Didn't do much hypnosis at all since it was too busy, and a friend that was hoping to do it got ill. Me and my girlfriend didn't really get too much alone time, but when I did hypnotise her, anyone walking past could've seen, but luckily, I kept it inconspicuous. Except for the trigger. Gave her a "firm" trigger (firm was the only word I could think of at the time to describe it) where her body freezes in place, but she is fully aware of everything that happens and can talk, but can't move her mouth. 'Tis a rather nice thing to watch to be honest. It's different from her "freeze" trigger 'cos that stops her completely in time, though she seems to laugh during it. May need a little tweaking there.

I've been doing hypnosis for just over a year now, and it's been a mad year. I've found a few very willing individuals, a few unwilling individuals, and some that have decided to give it a try so they can say they have. It's been pretty mad. I'm still after some more volunteers, but I was thinking about maybe charging something like £5 or something for a 30 minute session, but I think that's a little farfetched. Maybe £1 or £2 or something if I feel like charging, I don't know. I've not got the hypnosis certificate that is required for hypnotherapy, but I don't intend on using it for that reason. I'm a safe, over cautious and well mannered guy who actually cares about other people, so I ALWAYS take the utmost care to make sure that everything goes smoothly. I don't know people's thoughts on this, but if anyone reads this and would like to give me feedback, then it would be greatly appreciated. It's something I can do, more effectively than I believed, and I'm happy to try whatever someone fancies, and if it earned me a couple of quid, then even better. I guess it's just an option, something I can do in my spare time that I enjoy, and get something from it, not only in the form of satisfaction that I've let someone else experience something as peculiar yet nice as hypnosis.

But yeah, please shout up if you have any points you wish to make. I'll gladly listen, and it is only a thought at the moment. I know there's that element of trust as to whether I'm going to zap someone to pay me more or always come back to me, but I genuinely don't work like that. I'd rather earn something from doing a good, fair job than start conning the world. I'd feel forever guilty if I did something like that, so yeah, there's a guarantee that wouldn't be an issue.

New blog soon (I hope), keep your eyes peeled!!

Pow!

2009-05-22T15:11:00.001-07:00

I've been having a think. To myself, of course, I often find myself talking to myself about various bits and bobs in a state of boredom and also to try and make sure I can actually make sense of what I'm thinking. Sound's a little stupid, but sometimes I struggle to hear myself in my head, so I speak it out loud. I've been having a think of different idea's to use that might make the hypnosis a little different, 'cos I get stuck with the same idea's time after time, and it'd be nice to try something different. I know it's safe to stick with what you already know, but it'd be nice if I had the chance to think of how to word a new idea, make it different from everything else, and talk it through with myself as to how to word it. That, in itself, is a challenge I ALWAYS accept, because I like to think that I have a slight way with words on occasions and I like to make things as descriptive as possible, and also try and imagine how I'd feel in their position, put myself in their shoes as it were.

I had a bit of a change with the girlfriend a couple of weeks back I forgot to mention. I took her into her "garden" that I'd given her in her head, and I let her have a walk around. She went on her swing, looked at the koi carp in her pond, took a walk down the path, and she saw a gate. She said she didn't know what was behind it, and I asked if she wanted to go and look, and she did, so she opened it, and walked through. More paths later, she said she was between two tall hedges that looked like a maze, and she said she came to a dead end. She started getting a little scared, so I said I was coming up behind her, and she broke into a smile and started cuddling me. Was quite a different experience, being hugged by someone still in a trance, but a nice one. So we took a bit more of a wander round, had a picnic, and then I let her gradually wake up, and she said she really enjoyed it. I like being able to let her have a walk round in her garden and relax, especially if she's had a fairly tense day and needs a bit of a chill out. The time I spend with her isn't constant hypnosis, I've spent most of the time with her in her normal state, because I genuinely do like her as she is, but it's nice to play around from time to time. But she struggles to think of new idea's, as do I, so if anyone has any idea's that they think of things I can try, or anything you've done that you think might be something new for me to do, let me know.

Work has been getting in the way of near enough everything recently, what with my employers needing people in for overtime, and my university work needing to be done for today, it's been a very busy 2 weeks. It's all done and dusted now though, so I can relax and begin to enjoy the 3 weeks I've got until I go to download festival and no doubt end up hypnotising a couple of friend's there who have been adamant that they want to try :P. I'm excited by it, and think it would be silly to turn down willing volunteers. The girlfriend knows I might be asked by some friends, and she's ok with it, so should be interesting. I shall avoid any suggestion involving seeing an aeroplane 'cos, if I want to remove it, I might struggle to find some time next to east midlands airport where there isn't an aeroplane. Girlfriend might be in for a treat though ;). And I'll do whatever is requested by those that ask to be hypnotized, so all is well.

S'laters.

Time goes by... So Slowly...

2009-05-17T16:40:00.001-07:00

Despite the blog title being what it is, I don't really like madonna. Her music kinda annoys me.

Yes, it's been yet another long gap between posts, but I've been busy, and shall be for about another 2 weeks yet.

Think with the girlfriend are going great. She's responding amazingly well in person, after a few tweaks to make her go under, she's pretty much dropping like a stone. She loves it, which is also another plus point, so I may be onto a winner there! (Though it might be the fact I can make her feel the same orgasm as many times as I wish :P)

You meet many people in life, most of which live fairly far away, and you tell them what you can do, and they go "oh my god! That's cool!" or something like that, but the fact they live miles away kinda suggests that it's redundant even considering trying hypnosis, unless like me you meet them at a festival or something. But last week, I found someone else who is interested in being hypnotized, and she's pretty much on the doorstep. I can walk about 5 minutes up the road and bam! I'm at her house. Fairly close, which could be cool if she wants to continue being hypnotized by me :P. She's responded really well, even with some of the amnesia I mentioned in another post which still amazes me, but it seems triggers work somewhat effectively whenever they're used. She got a little creeped in the first go at hypnosis in person, which was a bit gutting, but none the less, understandable. I've done hypnosis over the internet mostly in the past, which is all good, but it's a little less interesting if you can't see the person. Limits what you can do. But the first real, cold induction in absolute ages made a change. Had to recall my ability to talk fast and describe. My brain kinda goes onto auto pilot and I say everything as though it was simple. Helps no end. But yeah, hope to do some more, hopefully soon, to let her explore some more 'cos I know she's really interested.

Anyway, signing off this blog. Got 2 possible hypnotees at download this year, if I have the guts to hypnotize someone in front of everyone :P. If not, might have to hide in a tent or something. Should be fun either way!! Might even give the gf a random trigger to have fun with on the campsite ;)

CHOW!!

In a month...

2009-04-15T08:37:00.001-07:00

What has happened over the past month.

Well, the girl I'm with has had some more experience of hypnosis, has felt hypnotic orgasms and has also responded to suggestions much better than I had expected. One such trigger is the freeze trigger. I've come to find that she responded to that much better than I'd expected, freezing completely still when I say "freeze", eyes fixed in place, and moving again when I say "move". She does, however, have a habit of grinning if I decide to tickle her sides, but she assured me she had no idea that I was freezing her, which also came as a surprise since I'd expected her to remember. With a little adjustment, I'm pretty sure I could help stop the random grinning. Her sleep trigger is also something of an experience. I use it, she stares forward for a moment, blank look on her face, and her eyes roll back and her eyelids close, and she slowly slumps forward. It's interesting to watch, and yeah, she makes a brilliant subject.

Over the past year or two, I've found myself becoming something of a slightly nervous wreck. I know this is slightly off the whole thing about hypnosis, but bare with me. I've kinda found myself feeling nervous all the time, feeling stressed out, my heart beating 10 to the dozen, my head thinking too much and feeling dizzy. I take minor pleasures from being able to do something someone else thinks is amazing, being able to make someone go "wow, that's awesome", and I've heard a few of those the past few months, and it's a real pick-me-up, even if it is only for about an hour that it cheers me up. Makes me think that, maybe, there is something unique about me, even if there are other people in the world that can do it, that it's not an uncommon skill, the fact that some people find it awesome makes it seem more worthwhile.

I've borrowed some of Lex's wording for various parts of the hypnosis (mainly the descriptions of the freeze trigger, the cat suggestion and the process of waking up, including a few bits also in the induction). He has a way with hypnosis that I'd quite like to mimic, but then again, I'd like to be slightly different, I'm not sure how, but I'm sure there's a way. Either way, his video's still intrigue and inspire me, and the girls he hypnotises are pretty damn good, so I think, if you haven't seen it already, you should check out his blog, there's a link on the right to "Hypnofantastico", an awesome read, and there are links to his website and other blogs, so please, go check it out!!

And so ends another blog.

Bye!!

I'm getting worse

2009-03-16T01:06:00.000-07:00

It's been around 3 months since my last blog. Not that I haven't thought about it, I've just got a new laptop and haven't yet transferred all my websites and such across. Still, I might just use this old piece of crap to do this instead.

Right, memory has a funny way with me. I can remember things from a long while back word for word, but over the past 3-4 months, I've pretty much forgotten most of what has happened. One thing that's for sure, I have a new girl in my life. She's awesome and, much to my delight, has expressed an interest on many occasions to explore hypnosis. So far we've toyed with it, with varying results, and I've found she holds on to suggestions really well. But I guess, the most important thing and possibly the strangest, is that when I'm with her, I like her to be her. I want to hypnotize her, make her blank and make her more sensitive and give her a great experience, but whilst that would be great, I like her as she is. I'm not rushing forward, the pleasure will come when she's ready, but I know that she's amazing as she is.

Sentiments aside, I've had further progression with one of my friend's. I don't say subject, seems too formal and doctor-ish. Anyway, progressing from the personality shut down, I've discovered just how powerful an orgasm can be. If you give the suggestion of added pleasure, maybe from more than one stimulus, and then leave them hanging on the edge for just long enough, then it's incredible what can happen. Now, she'd mentioned before she'd like to let go some day and basically be ordered about, but that she was a bit nervous to do so. So I put her under, told her to masturbate (we were on MSN at the time) and also suggested that she would feel like she was being penetrated, all whilst feeling blank, empty and really sensitive. So off she goes, and within 5 minutes, I had her hanging on the edge. I suggested that she would become a blank, mindless, obedient slave when she orgasmed and asked if she wanted to do that. To my surprise, the answer came "yes" (I was amazed she was able to type). And so, she orgasmed, she let go, and there she was, a blank, mindless slavegirl. It amazed me that it worked, I think I nearly passed out in shock (which isn't a good thing when the person on the other end of the phone-line is calling on you to guide them along). I left a suggestion to put her back into slave-mode anytime, woke her up, and she didn't remember. I hadn't suggested she wouldn't, she just couldn't remember anything after the orgasm. And her trigger worked perfectly for about a week, then it stopped working. Still, that's pretty good for a first go at the trigger, and also considering usually they don't last the night. Maybe it's my ability, I don't know. But still, it was a pretty incredible experience for both of us.

On a different note, I shall be at this year's Download festival for the second time, chilling out in the campsite before the music starts on the friday. I've had a couple of requests to hypnotise people whilst there, one fell through since they can't make it, but there should be one other who is somewhat keen to try it out in person. Her response when she tried it over MSN was pretty funny. Her mixture of shock, amazement, joy and interest made me laugh. She said she enjoyed it and is eager to do it again. So, as long as the usual interruptions don't hinder our efforts, then it should be fun!!

Sorry for the long gap between posts, and sorry if there are any spelling mistakes. I've gotten used to a new keyboard layout, so you'd be amazed how many typo's I made during this. Including one on the typing of the word "typo". Hope everyone that does read this is well, it's been a rocky few months for me, but it's nothing I haven't been through before, so it'll blow over very soon.

CHOW!!!

I'm slacking...

2008-12-08T15:44:00.000-08:00

Nearly a month since my last blog. Apologies, but I've been busy, and in a bit of a poor mind-set to get the motivation to blog, but if you're like me, I promice you'll find this blog interesting.

A girl I've known from work for about a year now decided to message me the other day via a social networking site. We sat talking, she saw the part of my status that said I know hypnosis, and she was eager to try. So, naturally, I did what any other man with any respect for a lady would do... I showed her some hypnosis... On her.

So yes, under she went, quite fast actually, beginning to see a pattern so far in how quick it takes to get to the initial point of relaxation. Of course, it requires a lot of deepening, but to get to the first stage takes little to no time at all. Anyway, I showed her a few things, finger stuck to face (since she was on cam to me at the time) and a few other little tricks that I thought might interest her (including freeze), and then she decided she wanted another personality. Now, the basis of this was thought up around the fact that she wanted to play, but not have to endure work. No idea how it'd work, but she said she wanted to have another personality, and asked if it were possible. Of course, since knowing Lex, I knew it was possible, though I wasn't sure completely how to go about the process. So I sat for a couple of days, thinking up how it might be worded, of how I thought the process might proceed. Then, eventually, we gave it a go. Now, correct me if I got this wrong, but I started by putting her under (obviously), and then I got her to temporarily deactivate her current personality so that she became nameless and ready to accept another personality. Then, I asked what name she'd want, and once that was established, started building the personality around what she wanted to be like (with a couple of inserts from me ;) ) and gave a trigger so that the switch would occur. I also made sure that, if her mum came in, the alternate personality would pretend to be who they were supposed to be (if that makes sense) and then I'd relay the details over when they switch back.

So, once it was finished, I woke her, and tried the trigger. And it worked. Extremely well actually. Sadly it didn't stick, need to work on making various triggers stick in people's minds so if anyone can offer any help, please do. I've used the one where it goes "the more this trigger is used, the more effective it'll be", but I'm not sure if that helps it stick. However, I'm sure with more tinkering it'll be possible to make something stick. I'll find out soon when they next want to try some more hypnosis, after finding out they liked the experience, in what I suspect was more than just an interest.

I've also had a go at it with another work collegue who was interested in having it done and also doing it, so, whilst I'm no teacher, I've pointed them in the direction of Derren Brown and various other people with the ability. They're also taking pointers from when I perform it with them. So, you never know, I might've helped create another female hypnotist. So be careful!!

And finally (if I'd blogged more wouldn't be this long), I'm in the long and annoying process of organising to meet up with another friend I think I mentioned in a previous post to perform more hypnosis with them. After some prying and poking (well, some blunt conversation to be honest), I've discovered they love the idea of being frozen and toyed with. So, again, in the way any kind gentlemen with any ounce of respect and morals would do... I've said we'd do that. She responded amazingly well to the freeze trigger when I used it on cam, so I'm just hoping it works as well in person. I believe it will, but at the same time, nothings ever certain.

Chow for now!

Sorry for the huge gaps...

2008-11-09T18:59:00.000-08:00

Apologies for my lack of posting. There's simply been very little to post about.

I've got a session lined up in the coming weeks with a good friend of mine, so should be cool if all goes well.

I had a go with another friend on thursday evening of last week. It all worked a lot better than I expected. She'd been hypnotised before, for theraputic purposes, so I presume that helped her relax. I was aware, however, that the theraputic aspect meant that I had to be careful with wording and tone of my messages. Luckily, with msn, you can change something if it doesn't look right before you say it. I guess that's a plus side.

Anyway, I did my usual induction and, surprisingly, she was in a deep state within the space of 5 minutes, so that helped a lot. I implanted a sleep trigger, woke her back up and asked her how it felt. Initially, she wasn't sure she'd been hypnotised, but then said it felt like tuning in a tv, not being able to get the channel at first, but when she woke up, it was like she found it. I found that quite intriguing, so I used her trigger and got her under again, with huge success. Managed to make her completely blank, and nicely relaxed, and had her finger stick on her nose. Then woke her up, asked her what was wrong, she told me her finger was stuck, I released it, and she didn't know how it got there. Again, I mentioned I hypnotised her to respond like that, but she didn't remember. Not sure if this is a normal response, but she had no idea it happened. However, I don't recommend moving the hands too much because they are essential in responding with feedback, but for the odd game, it's good.

But yes, this made me wonder. I've had 3 people so far in my hypnotic activities that have had little or no memory of what has happened, and that's without any sort of amnesia. Everyone else has remembered what has happened. Is it due to how deeply they relax or is it something else? I recall one person I hypnotised, a girl I used to adore at school, I laid a suggestion that she'd wake up and respond as a cat would with a meow, because that was what she wanted to try, and as soon as she woke up, before i could say anything, she said "now I know for a fact that hasn't worked". It was down to her thoughts I think. She said she was having a hard time clearing her mind, but said it felt nice to be hypnotised, much to my delight. After weeks of organising and reorganising sessions to try and help solve this and let her experience the life of a cat, nothing came of it due to work commitments on her behalf and so it was postponed until a later date. But I wonder if the level of thought someone has during hypnosis plays a role in memory too. I know the clearing of the mind is essential to concentrate and relax, I mean, if your mind is racing it's hard to sleep, but I wonder if some brain activity causes the person to remember the events during the session.

Anyway, I intend on laying out more than 1 session in the next few weeks, might ask one of my old volunteers if they wish to give it another go, then report back with what happens. I recall last time she got slightly frustrated 'cos I suggested she'd feel incredibly horny (serves her right for bragging about the amazing sex she'd had the night before, lol), but she said it was a nice feeling, however embarrased she was of me doing it, lol. But yes, maybe another go with that one, and let her have a walk around her "garden" (a little relaxing spot I've tried on most of my volunteers to help them relax and see how visually dependant they are. Let them put what they want in it and see how they explore it. Apparantly incredibly relaxing).

For now, though, I must be off. It's 3.15am and I have university in just over 6 hours, so I'm going to live off caffeine today I think.

Kapow!!

2008-10-17T16:44:00.000-07:00

Yeah, that was my attempt to open this blog post with something relevant. Thinking about "Instant inductions".

I remember when I first started learning, I'd seen a video on youtube by a hypnotist that had done an induction involving a volunteer staring at the hypnotists hand. I thought "I want to try that!", so I did. And it failed. Lex always told me slow and steady wins the race (or something to that effect), but I can sometimes be a "I want it right now!" kind of person. I'd love to learn instant induction techniques in the future, but I guess for now I'll use the tried and tested manner that works. Maybe end up with the same success as Lex some day :)

Finding "subjects" has gone a little slow recently. Whilst I might know about 5 different girls that have done it and enjoyed it, finding the time with them during their busy work and uni schedules is difficult. Though, in one case, pure lazyness seems to be the reason. I intend on finding a subject available often to practice on, but I guess I should take the "slow and steady" route. Someone will appear. Hopefully a girlfriend, I'm sure they'd be willing to give it a go.

Another year older. 20 as of about two weeks ago. Feels no different, though I can no longer say I'm a teenager. However, I think my teen years were fairly well spent, and I'm glad I can say I learned hypnosis in my teens because now it's available for the rest of my life. Oh so many years of enjoyment ahead, I can't wait. A little bit of fun now wouldn't go amiss though ;)

I'm quite secretive of one part of my hypnosis interest. Though, to be honest, I've not told my parents I know how to do it. Purely because I've always felt uncomfortable telling them anything because they seem to find an alternative meaning towards it. Sometimes they're right, but I guess that might be why I don't mention it. I tell friends, perfectly happy to tell them because it's easier to mask. Most of those have said "wow, cool!", so that's pretty good. Think I've mentioned before though that a couple of girls I know have stated an interest in losing control. So, naturally, I jump at those opportunities. Though, also, like I said, they're busy a lot and it's quite irritating, but sometimes, that's life. I'll get a chance soon. And it'll be awesome.

Getting good at the whole "blank" thing, and "freeze" triggers. Both of those are pretty fun. Want to try and get somewhere with the whole "fembot" thing, though it's not really as important. Fun to try, but sometimes it's a bit too robotic. "Thoughtlessly doing whatever is said" is probably more interesting.

Au Revoir!!

Maybe it's the way I think...

2008-09-29T14:12:00.000-07:00

Some people I find have various scripts and idea's laid out on paper, or pre-prepared in their mind, as to to what they are going to do with someone under hypnosis. I tend to wing it, make it up as I go, making sure I understand various ethics and safety precautions. Things tend to not work as well for me if I simply read it from a script or plan, it looses the feeling I can get into a sentence just by making it up.

There are some things I'll always do (Baloons, rigid arm, sticky hands etc.), but then there are times where I'll just make something up as I go along. So far, I've not done much on the erotic side, I've found a couple of people who said they are willing to help, but not had much luck in finding time to try it out due to clashing daily routines. But I guess, when I come to doing it, I'll wing it as I go along, see what they like, either refer to things i've seen or read, or just make something up. I guess that's the creative side of me, I'm brilliant at thinking things up on the spot, blagging my way through various presentations at college and university using the logic I've become accustom to, and even now, I'm just whipping off different thoughts. I started this blog with just the title, and it built. So, basically, I'm not sure how everyone else goes about the scripting, or how their hypnotist does it, but I'm spontaneous.

I've just had a thought about general words, conversation. The way you can talk, describe things, the emphasis you put on certain things. It's obviously important in hypnosis, but some people are better than others. When I look at "subjects" (I hate that word... Tend to use volunteers, lol), I find myself looking for susceptibility, levels of concentration, relationship I have with the person and also their imagination. In hindsight, however, maybe the way I word things would be more ideal as a change from person to person. People respond in different ways, some can picture images you implant in their head, like a big garden or some baloons, and others respond better to a focusing on feeling, how light they feel, how sleepy they are. Whilst imaginative people seem to me to give off the most obvious sign of deepening, I've found that people who respond better to feelings have generally fallen under better, maybe due to their ability to relax. But maybe for those that I've struggled with, maybe just simply "altering the words" might help. Adding emphasism here, changing a few words there. I'm still learning, and I guess that's a bit towards the love of hypnosis. You're forever learning. Though that's life really. And it's awesome.

I'm probably stating facts that most of you are already aware of, but for me this is a bit like reorganising someone's photographs and trying to order them. To those that were there, they could put them in perfect, chronological order, but for me, it's a lot of guesswork, looking for similarities (in the photo's it'd be sunlight, clothing etc.) and having a stab at what I think is correct. I've found I learn so much better by myself, asking for advice here and there instead of having a hands on tutor. I have those who can help me if I encounter problems, but right now, even though I'm aware of the dangers etc. I'm not risking it. I'd rather get the basics, and gradually work towards what I want to achieve. I think I've got those basics, but still I'm cautious on every sentence I use, looking for loopholes that may cause problems and making sure I state things clearly with an obvious end to it. That's why I'm so confident in my "on the spot" skills, I can get out of any trouble insanely well. But I don't walk into it on purpose so as to have to sort it out again.

Well, I type a lot, apologies if my blogs are too long, or if they drift off into tangents, it's how my mind works. I'm the "imaginative" type I mentioned earlier, I can picture things insanely well, and I also think of a million and one pointless idea's. Good properties of a hypnotist and a sub I believe.

Anyway, apologies for rambling. If you enjoyed it, thanks! It's nice to find readers at last, just hope I don't bore you into some natural state of trance. If I have, copy the link of this blog and tell all your friends that you believe will be interested! If I haven't, then do the same anyway.

Chow!

Observations...

2008-09-27T15:36:00.000-07:00

I've been having a think, and I've come to the conclusion that there are many a different type of person involved in hypnosis. By this I mean there are the people who wish to dominate, the people who wish to be dominated, the ones who want to do it for a laugh, ones who want to try it to see how it feels, people who want to try it though they don't think it works, etc.

I've met a fair few of these kind of people, my ex girlfriend in particular claiming she doesn't believe in hypnosis because she's tried it at least 7 times with proper hypnotists. Fair enough is what I say, but I guess if you got to know her better, you'd understand she's quite fond of her opinion, so chances are she was busy doubting it whilst she tried it. Others I know are interested in how it's done. I have another friend who I'll be trying some hypnosis on in the coming weeks who found it particularly interesting that you could influence someone's thoughts in that way. She also wishes to learn, so what better way to start than experience it. Though, saying that, I didn't. Being on the recieving end wasn't my thing.

Another friend of mine whom I hadn't spoken to in about 8 months text me again a few days ago, and I mentioned I had learned the basics of hypnosis, and she said "ooo, try it on me!". I find it intriguing how some people jump at it just like that. More so, the fact that she said she was excited. I asked "why?", in pure curiosity, and the reply was "I don't know, just, yno, I'm going to get hypnotised!!". So I guess for most people, being on the recieving end has always been in the back of their mind, either momentarily or for many years.

You might've noticed that I've practiced on various friends of mine. Part of this is due to accessibility. It's easier to practice with friends because there's already a level of comfort there. We know each other, have a level of trust, and so it tends to go smoother. I also guess that, mostly, I practice on my friends because I've always wanted to really. Sounds strange, but I guess I've always wanted to practice on some of the girls I know. In fact, when I first started talking to Lex, I used to amuse myself by thinking of all the girls I know that I'd want hypnotized. Interpret the word "amused" as you wish there. I have some awesome friends, some know a little more of the dark side of me, not just the "interest" i have in hypnosis, but some of the deeper elements of it that I wish to try. I've only mentioned it to those who've actually said to me they want to lose some control. Fascinates me that, how someone wants to lose control. I guess some of it is drawn from an insecurity, about making their own decisions, but instead having someone else make them for them, and I guess it's also about just giving in to someone, knowing that someone else is enjoying it as much as them. Anyway, tangent aside, I've mentioned my interest in hypnosis to many of my friends, and not just girls (I just don't hypnotise the lads, feels weird). I work with a few that have tried it, and the others are friends I've come to know over the years in various things I've done.

People respond better to different stimuli. Some respond to msn hypnosis amazingly well, but in person they don't respond as good, whilst others are the other way round, and some are amazing at both. I'm fortunate enough to have been with a girl that had some of the most amazing responses you'll see. My first ever attempt at hypnosis, I got her under in less than 5 minutes. In fact, she was that responsive, you didn't even need to get her to close her eyes. You could spend 20 seconds talking to her and getting her to concentrate, and her brain was pretty much like play dough. On the other hand, I've had some people who I didn't even manage to get under. One was slightly hyperactive at the time for some reason, so that didn't work. Had one friend who got as far as closing her eyes, but then started laughing and opened them after my voice apparantly changed. Also, another friend closed her eyes, gradually drifted down, but didn't go deep enough, she couldn't let go of her thoughts, depsite what, at the time, was my best effort to help. She responded awesome on msn.

I'll save some of the other stories for another time. I notive how long my blogs are. Mostly full of babble, but sometimes there aren't enough words to finish a story. Sometimes you need all the details.

Right, that's how for now. Any idea's, or if you wish to try it out (females only, though I get the feeling that'll be hard to come by), give me a comment or something, and we'll see what can be sorted out.

See ya!

Well...

2008-09-13T16:50:00.000-07:00

Both of the subject's I have been using recently are currently ill, so I'm not able to practice. One recently had an operation and is still recovering, with pain, so would have a hard time concentrating, the other has a bug that has been going round recently and keeps randomly throwing up, so wouldn't be great to try with that problem.

Not much really to blog about, but instead, I guess I'll try and delve into why hypnosis is of interest to me and how I got started.

The first time I became aware of hypnosis (that I can actually recall with my god-awful memory) was whilst I was on holiday with my family in Ibiza. I was 13 at the time I think, so beginning to become more aware of various attractions. One night in the bar, there was a stage hypnotist booked to play. Originally I wanted to leave the bar and go back to the room because I was kinda scared I'd end up being hypnotised (yeah, I can do the hypnotising, but wouldn't want to be hypnotised myself). Anyway, I hung around, after much whinging from my mum, and sat and watched the show. Well, the usual people wandered up, people who wanted to genuinely try hypnosis, people who wanted to be the centre of attention, and people who had been forced to go up regardless of if they wanted to or not. And, also as usual, people were sent off stage as the hypnotist went along until there were about 8 people left. There was one woman in particular who was particularly pleasing to the eye (well, at 13 she was anyway) and that had my attention hooked. They were made to do various things such as humping chairs, orgasms, glasses that make people appear naked, and oddly something about the hypnotist having a huge penis and he propped it on their arms. That confused me slightly. But there was something about the way they were just doing the stuff, going with it and it was happening that grabbed my attention. I know now that stage hypnosis is a little bit different to the hypnosis I do, but still, these people were just doing anything. And it had me hooked... For a while.

Years went by, saw no more hypnosis shows, heard nothing of it, and then there was a hypnotist on a re-run of rikki lake on the tv. Can't remember why I was watching it, but this one had me hooked too. A woman was made to believe she was a pumpkin. Very odd, yes, but she genuinely didn't know she had arms and legs, even though she was looking at them. I'll go into this more later. After watching that, I remembered the reaction I had to hypnosis and felt it rising again. I went onto the internet and did a few searches and came across a guy that called himself "mr bill". Now, there's been a lot of negative comments I've read about him and, to be completely honest, he's very repetative, but at the time, it was all I needed. So I browsed that website occasionally, but eventually stopped going onto it for a reason I'm still unsure of.

A little while longer passed, girlfriends came and went, and eventually, last october, one of the most beautiful girls i've ever been with decided me and her were no more, and I needed some sort of solace, a kind of comfort. My first choice was hypnosis. I have no idea why, but I had an impulse that maybe it'd help me out. So I did the common thing and searched on google for hypnosis, and also included "msn" into the search criteria. Thank the lord, I stumbled across lex's blog and started searching through his clips etc, and it was incredible. New things I'd never seen before, never thought possible, and he could do them. I was jealous, but wanted to try myself. Anyway, I added his girl, Liz, on msn and we got talking. Seemed normal at first, then I discovered Briony. Experiencing the ability to instill 2 personalities on somebody probably nearly killed me in the excitement it caused. If you want to know how bad it was, I slept very little, spent every conversation shaking wildly, and also woke up in really cold sweats, the bed completely soaking from my sweating, every morning for like a month. It hit me that hard. But it was amazing that someone could do that. So I started talking to lex, we spoke about interests in it, whether it was easy or hard, and he agree'd to hypnotise a friend of mine (for which I'm still greatful, so much). She came over, he did his work, 2 hours later, she was ready. She had a freeze trigger and a fembot trigger. I used to freeze trigger so many times, but I never got round to using the fembot trigger, and wish I had used it because she's gone off to uni now and I won't see her for a while. But it was brilliant.

Through lex and liz, I met mirehn. Quite a contrast to lex. Mirehn was more centred around a subtle induction, edging around the key points of an induction, inducing them without the subject really knowing, whereas lex was more to the point but amazingly effective. Mirehn agreed to hypnotise my girlfriend of the time (I said it'd help me learn if I saw it happen and, whilst I never saw it, it actually did help me out an incredible amount). So yes, he did it for me. Her triggers didn't work, sadly. Though I understood why. As I found later, it took a lot for things to drill into her mind and embed, so it's understandable why she didn't respond as well as we'd hoped. But anyway, yes, I spoke to her about it, how it felt, and asked about whether he highlighted key points that she should be feeling. And she said he did and that he told her how relaxing it was etc. etc. I'd gotten all of this information, but was still lacking the final set of instructions in my head on how to do it. It was then that I got the book "Trick of the Mind" by Derren Brown. He doesn't tell you directly how to do it, but he gives an idea and a rough guide on how best to approach it, so I took his advice and mentally constructed what I believed to be the right way to go about it. My girlfriend at the time agreed to let me try it on her, and so I took my first attempt. I decided to hazard a guess at how it felt through how i've felt when I've been relaxed after a hard day at school and college. Needless to say, it did something, she was staring blankly at me, but I didn't believe it had worked, so I stopped. She confessed it had worked, so we had another go. This time, I just carried on, didn't stop, and just carried on talking. Her eyes wouldn't close, but I remembered a tip from a stage hypnosis book I bought a while back (about the only time I've actually used any technique from that book) and put two fingers apart above her eyes and got her to look at them, then reiterated how heavy her eyes felt. Needless to say, then started the blinking, and my encouraging of her to close her eyes and, gradually, eventually, they closed. I shook more than when I spoke to liz, I was incredibly nervous, yet excited. My girlfriend sat, on my bed, hypnotised, and I had done it to her. I couldn't believe it. So I woke her up, spoke to her about it, and did it again. And again. And again, until eventually I got the hang of it and decided to leave a sleep trigger. I immediately spoke to lex, told him I'd done it, and showed him some of the stuff I'd tried. I think he was quietly impressed. But yes, I'm greatful to Lex for the many tips and advice he's given me. It's proven invaluable to me and has helped me hypnotise the people I have.

So yeah, I experimented with a few things, had a temporary freeze trigger, met some of her wishes, made her completely mindless. Also did the fun stuff like Hypno-kitten and drunk, though had a problem with her laughing as a kitten. But, with a few tweaks, that was sorted and she was being a proper cat. I've got a photo somewhere, but it's not to be put on here. I'm very sure she wouldn't appreciate it, partly because she doesn't know this blog exists. Time went by, did some more hypnosis, then things kinda fell apart between us and it was feeling more like friendship. My 5 days at download festival made me miss her, but then, when I got back, I felt like I had before, and so we called it quits and ended our relationship. Still, I've had some fun away from that. Found people that want to try it to see what it's like, people that want to see it happen, and two people that want to have no control over what they do. So it's not been a wasted effort. I'd like to have a subject I can permanently work with (until I get an amazing girlfriend that's willing to try it), but so far I've gotten nothing. Illness is unavoidable, but it would be nice to be able to do it more often.

Either way, that's pretty much the story on my interest. It's a lot of writing, a lot of reading, and a little bit of detail. But thinking back on all of it has actually made me realise how well I've done in 6 months, going from knowing nothing to knowing how to do it and being able to. I keep doubting if I should carry on, there'll come a day where I either decide to stop or have a good reason to stop, but for now, I am going to continue practising, learning new things, and exploring all there is to explore. I know the risks, I know the safety, so that shouldn't be a problem. Erotic hypnosis is something I'm not sure about yet. I want to do it, but I'm not sure what techniques are best to use. What words to use. I particularly like fembot mode, I've managed to make a couple of people blank and mindless, so I guess I'll just have to experiment some more and put two and two together like usual.

If you read all this, go rest your eyes, and thank you so much. Apologies if there are weird white lines across your eyes too, I get that after reading various pages. It's annoying. They go after a a few minutes, but they can be annoying sometimes. If you've not read this page, fair enough, maybe reading isn't your thing, but I'm happy to read on others experiences, though I guess we're all different.

It just gets better and better...

2008-09-05T15:13:00.000-07:00

Found another volunteer. And wow, did she respond well.

It took about 10 minutes to put her into a really deep state. Did it straightforward this time and she seemed to follow my every word. Had a few problems with her laughing randomly, but managed to stop that by making her mind completely blank. You could see it on her face too, her mouth was slightly open, she did keep randomly twitching, but she spent the best part of it just staring at the screen, completely fixed, completely blank and completely emotionless.

Because she had a webcam, I made the most of it, and had her imagine a baloon on her wrist, as is one of the common ways of testing levels of deepness and helping to deepen the trance. Well, it worked very well, gave me reason to make her blank because she did keep laughing, but eventually it just rose up in the air whilst she gazed at the screen. After that, I had her hand stuck in the air, one still moveable so she could still type (I think of every point before I try anything, lol). After this, I did the best I could to make her completely blank, and the more I said to her "you feel like an empty canvas, completely blank, completely thoughtless, not a worry in the world", the more relaxed she seemed to get.

Well, I had a go at a few things (drunk which worked well, waving at the cam when I said lol which I say a lot) but then I decided to have a go at freezing her in place. Now, I'm no expert at this, you'd be better to ask lex about it for greater detail, but I think I've picked up a few pointers over the past few months which I thought I'd give a try. I put her under with her sleep trigger, got her to go nice and deep and relaxed, had her mind completely blank as before, not a thought at all, and then I began working on freezing her. I tried to keep it simple. I basically said that, when I said freeze (with a few symbols round it so as it doesn't happen in a normal conversation), she would sit completely still, frozen in place, and she'd be completely blank and thoughtless just like she was whilst she was under. Also made sure I included the unfreeze trigger so as to return her to normal. After that, I woke her, and thought I'd give it a try. It worked incredibly well. She was typing to a friend, came back to my window, and just sat, frozen in place, staring at the screen with the slight grin on her face she had before she opened the window up again. I unfroze her, and she sat laughing. She said it was good, so I did it again. And again. And again. And... well... you get the picture. At one point she was hiding her face, and I froze her, and she sat with her hands either side of her face, as she was when she was hiding.

I'm going to have a go at making her not realise she's been frozen in future, but for now I think I'll just enjoy the view whilst she's frozen ;).

It's getting better and better anyway, 2 volunteers now, and another coming at the end of september. Rather enjoying playing around anyway, it's great fun :).

Anyone has any ideas, or wishes to volunteer (so long as you have a cam), get in touch. Much prefer females by the way, lol. So yeah, get in touch, and I'll give it a thought :).

Cya!

I think I've decided...

2008-08-30T14:09:00.001-07:00

An old friend of mine volunteered to be hypnotized, stating she was interested in it and how it seemed cool...

I didn't do very much, because, of course, she doesn't know of the "kinks" some of us have, and she also has a boyfriend, but anyway, I decided to hypnotize her over msn, as you do. To make it even better, she had a webcam, so that was awesome.

Right, well, to start off, the first attempt, she started laughing. She's quite a giggler, bless her, but it's to be expected occasionally. I sat and talked through it with her, and I decided that, instead of the direct route of "i'd like you to relax", I went for the idea of "working my way around it and subtly inducing hypnosis". Basically, I talked to her about what I wanted her to do, and then spoke through how it'd feel, and gradually started talking about how she would end up focused on everything I said and how warm and comfortable the chair would feel. You could see her gradually dropping in, because her face became more and more relaxed, her eyes were drooping, but remained open, and she had a really blank, engrossed look on her face. And what a cute face it is.

I gave her a relaxing trigger to help me out with putting her under again and woke her up. Asked her how it felt, she said it felt weird, but in a good way, and that she wanted to do it again. So I used her trigger, and you could actually see it work. One moment, she's fidgeting around in the chair, randomly looking around, the next she's caught midway between adjusting her hair and she sat completely still, eyes fixed on the screen, face as blank and sleepy as before, and it was one of the most awesome sights ever. You can only wish you'd seen. Anyway, an idea she liked was to walk around a garden in her mind, so I did that, let her have a wander around, then got her to gradually wake up when she was ready. I sat and watched the cam, and she was still sat staring at the screen, and then she started to gradually begin moving, and eventually she woke up. Was so nice.

But it's not all brilliant. She came over on friday to have a go in person and, after 5 attempts, I gave up because she had a bad problem with laughing, or she'd just suddenly start moving and look at me. It wasn't all bad, managed to get her to the point of closing her eyes. She's quite a twitcher when she goes under, but looks incredibly cute when it works. But yeah, it didn't completely work, she said it was because she knew I was there, which is confusing, but I think for a little while we'll be focusing on using msn to do it, until I can figure a way of helping her concentrate.

A good few days though overall, even if she is my only current subject, but I will have another one by the end of september who also wants to learn. And she's not too bad either.

All in all, I feel a bit more happy about carrying on. Thanks to an amazing friend.

Should I continue?...

2008-08-25T12:44:00.000-07:00

I'm beginning to wonder if I really should carry on with this hypno stuff. I know I've only been doing it for 4 months, but so far in the past week alone, I've lost about 6 people who said they'd help me out with practicing, so I'm now down to nobody. I understand patience and all that, but basically, everyone who said they'd let me practice is now no longer available. And I'm beginning to get fed up.

I really want to continue doing it, it's great fun, and there's so much more I want to explore (fembot being one, and various other things I've seen people like Lex use), but if I've got noone to try it on, I'm going nowhere. Now, people could say "practice on a guy". I could, yes, but I'll be honest, the thought of practicing on a man makes me physically ill. Bit extreme, maybe, but it really isn't my thing. I'm not someone who'll put a woman under and get her to flash her chest at me (it's not my favourite bit for a start), right now I want to find out how far down I have to take someone in order for suggestions to be more effective, and eventually move onto the nicer stuff once I've got that sorted. Right now, when I do it on msn, I don't think I take people deep enough. I'm still not sure what the limit in depth of trance would be, but it might be why my inductions last for about 10 minutes, if that. I've asked a friend before to wave at the camera, and it disturbed their concentration, even though I said it wouldn't, so I think deeper is the key.

I'm sorry that this is a bit of a ranting blog, but I'm really doubting whether I'll find anyone commited to help. Ideally, I'd like to be able to practice every day, but that wouldn't mean for the whole while I'm online. I do talk about other things too, and I like a laugh, but if I could actually find someone to practice on whenever they're online, then it'd help a lot. But the chances of that right now feel very very very very very very very slim.

Anyway, I'm now on the MC Forum, same username as I have on here, so if you see me on there, please say hi.

Well...

2008-08-04T09:12:00.000-07:00

I've no longer got a girlfriend as an "available subject" for hypnosis. But, yno, doesn't mean I won't ever do any more.

I had a go last week actually on someone else, they might end up writing some posts for me on here, she was more interested in "losing control" and wanted to give it a try. Sadly, we got a little way into it, but she didn't seem to relax as well as she did when we tried over msn. Never the less, doesn't mean we shan't be doing anything again. Maybe just over msn, might be easier when she gets a webcam, and also might be able to get some pictures ;).

I've only done about 4 lots of hypnosis over the past 3 weeks. It's gotten less frequent due to lack of interested people (and my own shyness to ask) so, if anyone is interested, drop me a comment with your msn address and we'll see what happens. I'll say now though, I'm not keen on hypnotising guys, just seems creepy, ironically, just thought I'd give that warning, lol.

Anyway, until next time,

Goodbye

Not much happened recently...

2008-07-09T16:20:00.000-07:00

Hi again

I'd like to write a whole blog about the stuff I'd gotten up to with hypnosis, but sadly, I've only managed to do one lot this week, and even that lasted about 5 minutes. Was just showing an interested friend what it was like, and chances are I'll have another subject to talk about next week. She said it felt weird, but she wants to try in person. I did it on msn you see.

I don't know what interests in hypnosis people out there have got, so if you have any particular interests, feel free to share. I find it fascinating, being able to influence people's thoughts and make them experience different things. My girlfriend particularly likes the drunk one at the moment, and I think that one is amazing because it draws on past experiences, which are incredibly accurate when you've experienced real drunk and hypno drunk. Just the fact that the brain remembers all of these feelings, can recall them again and reuse them. Another sense possibly? Maybe that's the 6th sense. Sense of recall, being able to feel various things again.

Right, short blog, and I apologise. But I tend to procrastinate with very little outcome. Short sharp bursts. Sounds wrong if you're not familiar with the meaning of the word "procrastinate", but I can assure you, I mean "jotting".

Anyway, another blog soon.

Bye!

First blog...

2008-07-03T15:00:00.000-07:00

As the title suggests, this is my first blog. Doesn't take a genius to figure that out, but maybe some might not notice.

Yes, I've decided to start this blog as a kind of diary of what I've done hypnosis wise so that, should I be struggling to think of something to try, I can come back here and remind myself of past things I've tried and take it from there.

I've done hypnosis on my girlfriend and a couple of friends, but also some people over msn. It's pretty cool over msn because even if you live a million miles away, there's still some sort of connection going on. But in person it's best, partly for me because I can read the situation better, but also for the participant because they can relax fully.

I'm sure some would be wondering what I've done so far. Well, my girlfriend is still taking to the idea of hypnosis. It interests her, but I can guarantee it doesn't interest her in the same ways as some readers might ;) Lex's blog anyone? ;)

So far I've done the basics (forget number 5, stiff arms, hypno-drunk) but I've done some I think are pretty complicating (frozen and unaware, talking drawings, body frozen in place but head still moving, unable to move but does as I say) and I've also had some fun when I did it on two people (hypno-cats, hypno-drunks, controlling each other's actions). It's pretty fun to try out, but you have to be careful as I've found on one occasion where my girlfriend went very dizzy. Was easily sorted though, and hasn't happened since. You learn from your mistakes as it were.

I've been doing this for about 3 months now anyway, so I'm pretty pleased with how I've done. All volunteers have been girls, think it'd feel a bit weird to me if I hypnotised a guy. Luckily though I know some cute girls so I've had my fun.

Anyway, close this blog. I'd like to say thanks to Lex for helping to respark my interest in hypnosis and giving me help and advice, Liz for helping me on runescape, and Lizz (Yin) for also helping to respark an interest and giving more help. Also to mirehn (yahoo) who's talked through various bits and bobs with me and helped me understand more.

Au revoir until next time.